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Shalini ke bolte hi main turnt uske paas pahuncha, uske haath se tasveer jhapaṭ liya aur use gaur se dekhne lag gaya. Dekhte dekhte mere nain jhar jhar baras pade maano ek sailab aaya ho aur raste me aane wale sabhi badhao ko todkar apne tay mnjil tak pahunchane ki koshish kar raha ho.
Mere baraste nain ki ek ek asru ki boond tasveer ko bhigone lag gaya. Jise dekhkar shalini boli…kaun hai ye shaks jiski tasveer ko dekhkar tum apni bhavnao ko niyntran me nahi rakh pa rahe ho aur asru dhaara baha kar tasveer ko bhigo rahe ho.
Shalini ke poochhate hi main fafak fafak kar ro diya. Mujhe rota hua dekhkar shalini ek baar phir poochha, iss baar mere lav swata hi khule aur main bol pada... Ye shakhs (kuchh der rooka ek gahari swas lekar khud ko niyntraṇ me laya phir aage bola) ye shakhs mere liye beskimti hain mere jeevan ka ek anmol dharohar hai. Main aaj jahan hoon yahan tak pahunchane men is shakhs ka yogdaan sabse jyada hain. Yaha shakhs mera jigri dost, mere dukh sukh ka saathi hain.
Shalini... Achchha (kuchh kṣaṇ rooka phir tnjiya lahje me boli) itna hi khas tha to tumne inhe bhula kaise diya. Ooo hooo samjha bulndi tumhare kadam choomne lage to daulat aur shauhrat pane ke ghamanḍ me tum itna choor ho gaye ki aapne jeevan ke khash shakhs apne jigari dost ko hi bhula diya. Chhee chhee raghav mujhe tumse ye umeed na thi.
Shalini ki tnjiya shabdon ne mere hriday bedana ko aur bada diya. Uske bole ek ek shabdteer mere hriday ko chhalni karte hue aar paar nikal gaya. Jitna sahan kar paya saha jab sahan seema ka bandh ṭooṭ gaya to main bolne se khud ko rok nahi paya.
"shalini tum mujhe aisa bol rahi ho. Jabki is wakt tumhe mera sahara banana chahiye magar tum sahara banne ke jagah mujh par hi tnj kas rahi ho. Tum janti hi kya ho? Main kitna ḍhoonḍha magar na jane kaun si andhi chali jisne mere dost ko mujhse door kar diya."
shalini… ḍhoonḍha! Chhee, chhee raghav jhooṭh to na bolo, duniya me aisi kaun si vastu hai. Jise ḍhoonḍha nahi ja sakta. Ret ke ḍher men gira chini ka dana ḍhoonḍh kar nikala ja sakta hai. Sarknḍae men gira sui bhi ḍhunḍhakar nikala ja sakta hain aagar wakt lagakar aur dheeraj rakh'kar ḍhoonḍha jaye. Magar tumne na dheeraj rakha na hi wakt lagaya to tumhe kaise milta. (kuchh der rooki phir aage boli) o samjhi tum apne dost ko ḍhoonḍhne me waqt lagate to daulat-shauharat kamane ke waqt me kami pad jata. Kyo raghav maine ṭheek kaha na?
Shalini ki boli gayi ek ek shabd mere dil ko chubha, behad chubha aur in chubhan se dard bhi behad hua. Ek dard pahale se hi mere dil me maujood tha. Uspe ek aur dard, jab dono dard ka samagam hua tab mere behte aashu swata hi rook gaye. Kyo rooka main nahi jaan paya, shayad vajah ye rah hoga ki dono dardo ko kam karne ke liye jitne aasoo chahiye utna aansoo mere aankho me bacha hi nahi hoga.
Aasoo rookne ka ek fayida ye hua ki meri nazre jo shalini par ṭika hua tha. Use shalini ki aankhon se bahta hua aasoon dikh gaya. Jise shalini ne bade safayi se ponchh liya.
Main samajh hi nahi paya uski aakhon ne aasroo dhaara kyo bahaya, main bas nazar ṭikaye uski aankho men dekhata raha. Achanak shalini ke chahare ka bhaav badla aur mand mand muskaan chehre par sajaye mere paas aayi phir mujhe gale se laga'kar mujhe dilasa dete hue boli... Chalo mana ki tumne unhe ḍhoonḍhane ki bahut koshishe kiya magar tumhari koshishe rang nahi layi. Ham unhen ḍhoonḍhane ki phir se koshish karenge aur is baar tum akele nahi balki main bhi tumhare saath rahunga. Shayad do logon ki koshish karne se tumhara dost tumhe mil jaaye magar shuruaat karne se pahle mujhe tumhare dost ke bare me janna hain jo mujhe tumne kabhi nahi bataya jabki tumne kabhi bhi mujhse koi baat nahi chhupaya.
Shabd bada ajeeb hota hain. Jise bolne ka bhaav alag alag hota hain. Ek hi munh aur usse nikla hua shabd ghaav bhi deta hain phir malham lagane ka kaam bhi karta hain. Jiska jita jagta misaal iss waqt shalini bani hui thi. Usi ke munh se nikla hua shabd mere dil ko ghaav diya aur ab usi munh se nikla hua shabd unhi ghaav par marham lagane ka kaam bhi kar raha tha. Jo mujhe hairan kar gaya main samajh nahi pa raha tha ki abhi abhi shalini mujhe tnjiya shabd teer maar rahi thi phir ekaek kya ho gaya jo itna meeṭha shabd bol rahi hain. isliye main hairani bhaav chehre par liye ek ṭak uski aankho me dekhne lag gaya.
Chnchal muskaan se muskurate hue mujhe kuchh pal dekha phir mera haath thame study room me maujud kursi par baiṭha diya aur mere pichhe khadi hokar mere gale me baanho ka haar ḍaale mere gaalo se apna gaal ragadte hue boli...Yoon hairan hona chhodo aur jo maine poochha use bolna shuroo karo (kuchh der rooki phir mere gaal par ek kiss diya or aage boli) plese bolo na ab der kyon kar rahe ho main tumhare dost ke baare me janne ke liye utaavla hua ja raha hoon.
Pyaar se aagar baat ban jaye to maayan se talavaar nikalne ki jarurat hi kya hain. Shalini bhi iss baat ko bakhoobi janti hain. Bas thodi si pyaar aur andar chhupa sabhi raj bahar, uski issi ada ka main bhi khayal hoon tabhi to main ek raṭaua tote ki bhanti bol pada…
shalini tum to janti hi ho bachpan me ek aapda me maine, mera pura parivaar kho diya tha. Mere aage pichhe koi tha to vo dadi thi. Jinhone mujhe pal posh kar bada kiya aur ek kaabil insaan banne me meri madad kiya. Mere kaabil banne men jitna haath mere dadi ka tha usse kahi jyada haath mere dost rishi ka tha.
"Rishi... naam se hi sadhu shant maloom hota hain hi hi hi"
itna bolkar shalini khilkhila kar hans diya. Jo mujhe pasand nahi aaya to gussa bhaari najar se uski aur dekha. Thodi si gaal ki ragdai, ek kiss aur kaan pakadkar sorry bolne ki ada ne mere gusse ko gaayab kar diya aur main aage bolna shuroo kiya…
hamare din bade hi kheencha taani me kaṭ rahe the. Lekin dadi hamesha kahti thi ki "ye din hamesha nahi rahenge kabhi na kabhi hamare bhi din badlenge."
Ab din badalne ke liye mehnat aur lagan ki zaroorat padti hain jo mere andar bilkul bhi nahi tha. Main laparwaha khud me hi mast rahta tha. Kuchh gine chune dost the. Jinke saath maṭargasti karta firta tha. Kabhi nahar me nahane jaana to kabhi baago me jakar phal churana, inhi kaamo me mujhe maza aata tha.
Paḍhai likhai par jyada dhyan nahi deta tha jab tak school me rahta bas yehi khyaal man me rahta ki chhuṭṭi ho aur mujhe in kitabon ke bhoj se mukti mile, jaise hi chhuṭṭi hota main turnt ghar aakar wasta aise fenk deta tha maano uski phir kabhi jarurat hi nahi padne wali, jiska nateeja ye hota ki mujhe shaam ko dadi se ḍaanṭ padti "tujhe ye kitaaben bojh lagta hain magar too ye kyo nahi samajhata abhi toone in kitaabon ka bhoj nahi uṭhaya to ek din tujhe bahut bhari bojh ḍhona padega jo in kitaabon ke bojh se bhi bhaari hoga jise ḍhon pana tere liye snbhav nahi hoga. Abhi waqt hain smbhaal ja varna baad me pachhatane ke alava kuchh nahi milega."
dadi ki baaton ko main ek kaan se sunta dusre kaan se nikal deta tha. Kyonki ye to roj ka kissa hain isliye main bhi jyada tul nahi deta tha. Jab unki nahi sunta to dadi phir kahti "raghav too meri baaton ko dhyaan se kyo nahi sunta un par amal kyo nahi karta hai, sun munna tu nahi jaanta mujhe seṭh ji ke kheton me kitna kaam karna padta hain chaṭak dhoop me jalna padta hain (phir apna badan dikhate hue aage bolti) dekh mere badan ko dhoop ki tapan kitna jhulsa diya hain jiske karaṇ meri chamadi kali pad gayi hain. Main nahin chahti ki tujhe bhi aise hi dhoop me jalna pade isliye paḍhai par dhyaan de aur maṭargasti karna kam kar de"
unki baaton ka mujh par ratti bhar bhi asar nahi hota tha. Main us waqt to haan haan kah deta tha magar baad men jioon ka tioon bartab karne lag jata tha. Dadi ki bolne se main sudhar nahi raha tha to oopar wale ne aakhirkar mujhapar apni chhadi chala hi diya.
Ye baat us waqt ki hai jab meri aaṭhavi kakṣa ki pareekṣa ho gaya tha aur scool ki chhuṭṭiya pad gayi. Bas phir kiya mere pnkh jo pahle se hi khule hue the vo or jyadaa khul gaya main dadi ke kaam par jate hi ghar se nikalta aur shaam ḍhalne ke baad ghar lauṭ kar aata tha.
Aise hi ek din main seṭh ji ke bagiche me gilli ḍanḍa khel raha tha. Us waqt ḍanḍa mere haath me tha aur abhi abhi gilli ka ek ṭol maar'kar main khaḍa hi hua tha ki Koi mere pichhe se aaya aur mujhe palṭa'kar "chatakkk" ek thappad mere gaal par mara jiski goonj bagiche men goonj gaya. "chatakkk" ek thappad aur pada phir to mujh par thappado ki jhadi jaisa lag gaya.
To be continued…