Day-70 ~EMV-X
“what do you like most about ISS, about being here...”Aurora mujhse puchhi...
Ammonia leakage ki problem ek baar fir se shuru ho gayi thi , jiske kaaran hum ek baar fir spacewalk pe the. Pahli baar jab main Spacewalk par Aurora ke sath aaya tha toh main nervous adhik aur excited kam tha lekin is baar ye equation bilkul ulti thi... abki main excited jyada tha , jiski ek vazah ye bhi thi ki main ordinary EMV spacesuit ki bajay EMV-X me tha. ordinary EMV me apne body ko fit karne ke liye jaha kayi ghante lagte hai, wahi EMV-X me ye kaam chand minutes me ho jaata hai. iske aalawa isme kamar ke paas Oxygen cylinder ke neeche extra thruster bhi laga tha... taki kabhi kisi accident ke kaaran yadi koyi astronaut ISS se door ho jaaye toh wapas ISS par aa sake. Ye kaam Ordinary EMV me chest ke paas laga SAFER bhi karta tha. par uski power EMV-X ke mukabale negligible thi.
Leakage ek baar fir Radiator-1 me hua tha, jiski repairing humne pahle ki thi, ye leakage itna jyada tha ki jis din ye leakage shuru hua uske kuch hee ghanto baad hume repairing ke liye, spacewalk pe jaana pada. Waise bhi ye Earth thodi hai, ye toh space hai... yaha zero gravity me bhala kya galat ho sakta hai. Empty space toh mera ghar hai. aisi meri maansikta thi.
Baat karu apni aur Aurora ki toh Nic ne baad me mujhe bataya tha ki us din cupola me humare beech jo kiss hote hote rah gaya uske liye wo bahut sharminda hai... uska kahna tha ki meri tarah Aurora ki bhi aankhe band thi aur uske honth meri taraf ahista ahista badh rahe the. Ab mujhe Nic bhi bhane laga hai. matlab ye bhi kitna ironical hai ki 7.5 billion ki abaadi waale grah me jaha pag-pag par jeewan vyapt hai, mujhe jeewan us-se door yaha is vacuum me mila, Jaha jeewan ka koyi naam-o-nishan tak nahi hai. Aurora aur maine uske baad naa toh kabhi us bare me koyi baat ki aur naa hee humare beech fir aisa koyi moment aaya... par ab hum aksar ek-dusare ki niji zindagi ke bare me sawal puchhte.. ek dusare ke sath aksar ISS me udte... Aurora ke kaaran ab mujhe Earth ki khoobsurati jo pahle bejaan si lagti thi, ab mera man moh leti thi...
“so, what do you like most about ISS... about being here.” Aurora ne apna sawal repeat kiya...
“no one could get bored here ... I mean, suppose.. you’re bored.. hell, no problem.. you can always go for a fly...like a superman...”
“I think... the question should have been.. who do you like most in ISS.. Right , Mis. A..?”Nic beech me bol pada, jo Radiator ke badhte temperature me ISS ke andar se nazar rakhe hue tha...
“just Shut up, Nic....”
Aurora ISS me ab sirf 20 din ki aur mehman thi... uske 6 mahine pure ho rahe the aur isi ke sath hee use prithavi par wapas lautna tha. mera vash chale toh main humare 6 mahine ke mission ko 6 saal me badal du ya fir 60 saal me... jab tak ki retirement ki age naa ho. par humari body sath nahi deti... mujhe Earth ko dekhkar wahi feeling aati hai jo dusare planet ko dekh kar ya fir sunkar.... mere liye Earth , is vast space ke samundar me tairta hua sirf ek khoobsurat pind hai... ghar toh ye ISS hai.
“leakage fixed... I think....”Aurora meri taraf dekh kar boli....
Jaise-jaise Aurora ke wapas jaane ke din najdeek aa rahe the, mere mann me ek sawal tha.. jo main usse yaha jaane se pahle hee puchh lena chahta tha... kyunki baad me mujhe bharosha nahi tha ki ye puchhne ka mauka mujhe milega bhi ya nahi.. isliye uske baaki bache 20 din pure hone ke pahle hee main ye sawal usse karna chahta tha. par mujhe wo shabd nahi mil rahe tha.. jo ki mere is sawal ko sawal ka roop de sake...
“Leakage fixed... Nic, check the Temperature parameter....”Aurora Radiator-1 se door hote hue boli...
“will you go to the Mars with me on Gateway Mission...?”aakhirkar maine puchh hee liya
Ye sawal tha toh bahut normal.... bahut normal.. atleast mere liye. par iska saaf-saaf matlab tha ki ...~ Aurora, will you marry me and will spend rest of your eternity with me wandering around the red planet ~...
Us bade se helmet ke peechhe Aurora ke chehre ke badalte expression ko main us vishal vacuum me bhi dekh sakta tha, par wo expressions positive the ya negative ... ye main nahi samajh paya. us waqt toh bilkul bhi nahi... itni samajh hee nahi thi mere andar. Aur fir.....
Nic: Leakage is not fixed.... I Repeat... Leakage is not fixed... Radiator-1 can not dissipate the heat any more...
Nick ki ye warning humne sun li thi par us samay hum dono ki situation aisi thi ki kuch samay lag gaya wo warning hume samajhne me... Aurora mujhe dekhti aur main use.... fir jab Nic ek aur baar chillaya tab Aurora ka dhyan toota, usne Radiator-1 ki taraf dekha... jaha se ammonia gas ki steam Radiator se bahar aate hue saaf dikh rahi thi aur fir ek halki si lau bhi....
“Zvezda Module gonna explode.... Aksh, I need you to go inside the Zvezda module and break all the connection with the Radiator-1...”
“I think, it’s too late...for that...”Nic bola...
“I think that, too... the only way to overcame this situation is repair the leak or bomb the Radiator-1... manually...”
“just go inside of freaking Zvezda Module and break all the connection with Radiator-1. now go... what are you staring at.... do not be dumb, just fucking go... right now... just gooooo”
Meri saari practice, saari study, saari samajh Aurora ke is instruction ke khilaf thi... par jab usne is tarah se mujh par dabav banaya toh.... waise bhi Zvezda module hee aisa ISS ka part tha jaha station ki life support systems aur backup fuel stored tha. Radiator-1 , Zvezda module ki radiation se generate hone wale heat ko control karta tha. par ab wo heat kam karne ke bajay , adhik kar raha tha... jisse life support system fail ho sakte the, store fuel explode ho sakta tha... ab sirf do raaste the yaa toh leakage ko wapas fix kiya jaaye ya fir Radiator ko manually explode kiya jaaye taki Zvezda Module fail naa ho... hume prithavi par sikhaya bhi yahi gaya tha, VR simulation me.
“Fucking go.....i will try to fix the leakage...”Aurora ek baar fir helmet ke andar se cheekhi....
Aur main Zvezda module ki taraf badha...
“Nic, Switch off Aurora’s mic....”
Aurora: what.. why..Nooo...”
Nic: it’s off, Mr. A...”
“what’s your opinion... what should I do...”
Nic: leakage can not be fixed... it’s too late... Manual explosion is our only way...”
“connect her...”
Nic: she’s on line...”
Aurora Radiator-1 se nikal rahi steam ki oor badh rahi thi.
“Aurora, do not ... Aurora... please....”
Aurora: I am doing what should I do, Aksh.... It’s not about you and me... it’s about the.....”
Nic: She is not trying to fix the leakage but ....
Aurora: You’re right, Nic. I’m gonna Bomb the Radiator-1. Standard Procedure. I just needed to get Aakash away from the explosion area. Testing EMV-X is most important for the Agency, so are you and Aakash...”
“Aurora... Listen to me... You can’t do iiittt...”
Nic: What the fffff
Jiske baad Zvezda Module ka hatch pakade hue mujhe aag ki lapte dikhayi di aur un aag ke lapto me samata Raadiator-1. us explosion ke kaaran ISS buri tarah Vibrate hua aur main Zvezda Module ke hatch se jor se takraya... par Aurora.... Aurora explosion ke bilkul karib thi... infact usi ne ye explosion initiate kiya tha...
“thrust cylinder leaked..... Nic...”
“Nic...?”
Nic: my head is bleeding....
“where is Aurora, Nic”
Nic: She is....oh god...”
Aurora ke dwara kiye gaye Explosion ke kaaran tether rope toot kar tukdo me tabdil ho gaya tha aur explosion ke kaaran jo thrust generate hua uska impact itna jyada tha ki wo ISS se door prithavi ki oor pushed hui... par wo neeche nahi gir rahi thi , balki ISS ki tarah hee ISS se door apne hee ek orbit me Prithavi ke charo oor ghoom rahi thi..... Nic ne jab mujhe ye bataya toh , peechhe mudkar maine Aurora ko dekha aur use ISS se door dekh turant EMV-X ka main thruster on kiya..
Nic: Aakash..? what are you doing...?
“testing the EMV-X...”
Nic: Your Thruster has leakage... you won’t be able to...
“just guide me through all of this....”Thruster on karke khud ko tether rope se detach kar main Aurora ki oor khud ko push kiya....
Nic: you can’t do it... she is at the end of zero gravity orbit. Your thrusters will push you beyond that towards The Earth... You can’t do it , A...”
“I have to....”
Aurora ISS ke parallel hee dusare orbit me thi... mera us tak pahuchna jitna mushqil tha usse bhi jyada, use lekar ISS ko wapas pakadna... upar se thruster bhi leak ho chuka tha... neeche prithavi par VR Simulation me maine kayi baar ye kiya tha.. lekin aksar Thruster ki power jyada hone par, mera khud par control nahi rahta tha aur main apne aim ke aage nikal jaata tha... lekin aaj ye option nahi tha. aaj ye nahi hona chahiye tha. isliye main thruster sirf thodi-thodi der ke on karke khud ko Aurora ki taraf halka push karta ... maine aisa kayi baar kiya aur jab mujhe laga ki iske baad main aage nikal jaunga yaani, toh thruster band kar diya
“she is not awake.....?”
Nic: her helmet is depressurized.... She may be dead already. Mr. A, come back to ISS....
Nic: Mr. A, our mission is beyond her life... do not boost your thrusters... Mr. A, please do not boost your main thruster. It will push you beyond the Zero Gravity Space. Earth’s Gravity will burn you alive...
“How far is she from me....”
Nic: 20 ...
“and now...”Turant thruster on karke off karke maine khud ko Aurora ki oor push kiya....
“it’s 8... no.. 7... Mr. A, please do not boost your thruster....”
Maine apna hath Aurora ki taraf kiya... Aurora mera hath pakad leti yadi wo hosh me hoti ... maine bahut koshish ki, apne sharir ki puri taqat jhok di bina thruster on kiye khud ko Aurora ki taraf push karne ki... lekin wo ab bhi door thi...
Nic: SAAAFEERRRRR.....
“SAFER...?”
Nic: It has low boosting power....
SAFER....? yes... main apne ek hath ko dheere-dheere apne chest ki taraf le gaya aur spacesuit me seene ke beecho-beech lage SAFER ko boost kiya , jiske kaaran main fir Aurora ki taraf push hua.... Aurora stable nahi thi... wo apne aap me hee bahut tej gati se gol-gol ghoom rahi thi..
Nic: six... five... four... three... two.... off your SAFER.
Aurora ab meri pahuch me thi , par wo itni tej gati se gol-gol ghoom rahi thi ki uska hath jo meri pakad me aa raha tha, wo turant uske round-round ghumne ke kaaran chhut jaata... kuch der tak aise hee kabhi Aurora ka hath ek pal ke liye mujhse touch hota, toh kabhi uska helmet toh kabhi uske sharir ka koyi aur hissa....
“I can’t hold her...”
Nic: Do not.....
Aurora ko aim karke Maine SAFER ko fir se halka boost kiya aur seedhe usse jaa takraya aur turant EMV-X ke main thruster ko on Karke ISS ki oor muda...
Aurora ka hath maine apne ek hath se pakda aur apne dusare hath se EMV-X ka thruster boost kiya. lekin ab ISS ko pakadne bahut mushqil tha. Maine Thruster on kiya aur khud Aurora ko pakad kar ISS ki oor badha.....
“how much power left, Nic...”
Nic: 20 %... 18... 15... Leakage is becoming wide...
Nic: 10 %
Nic: come on, come onnnnn.... Mr. A
par Thrusters beech me band ho gaye aur fir ek jhatke se main , Aurora ke sath wapas ISS se door jaane laga... main thruster band hote hee maine chest ke paas SAFER ko bhi boost kiya, jisne kuch doori tak fir se mujhe ISS ki oor push kiya... par thodi der baad wo bhi band ho gaya... SAFER ke band hote hee main samajh gaya ki ye mera ant hai, ye humara ant hai. maine apni aankhe surya ke kshitiz me dekhte hue dheere-dheere band ki aur ek hath ISS ki taraf badha kar, apne ant ko swikar kar liya....
Mujhe maloom tha ki ab main apni aankhe band karke agli baar jab kholunga toh... toh saamne meri maa mujhe dikhayi degi aur shayad... Aurora bhi. maine us pal SAFER ke band hote hee is sach ko swikar kar liya tha aur mujhe koyi malaal bhi nahi tha. bas mere kuch sawal mere sath hee is empty space me dafan ho rahe the... mujhe Aurora ka spacewalk ke dauran muskurata hua chehra dikhayi diya aur usse Mars Gateway mission me apne sath chalne ke liye puchhta hua main... uska jawab kya hota...? par ab in sab ka koyi matlab nahi tha.... maine Aurora ka ek hath pakde hue khud ko ISS se door jaata mahsoos kiya... kyunki meri body me badhti hui disturbance mujhe iska aabhas kara rahi thi . par mujhe khushi bhi thi ki agli baar jab main apni aankhe kholunga toh mujhe meri Maa dikhayi degi.. muskurate hue, mera intezaar karte hue, apna hath mujhe pakadne ke liye aage badhate hue... maine khud ko is waqt us baarish me, bheegta hua, us school ke us bench par paya... bas intezaar tha toh sirf meri maa ka... jo waha thodi der baad aur usne mera hath bhi pakda... mujhe iska jab aabhas hua toh maine apni aankhe kholi....
aur jab maine apni apni aankhe kholi toh saamne meri maa nahi balki Nic tha.. wo bhi EMV-X me. Jiske thrusters fully charged the, Without any leakage. Usne mera hath kaskar pakda aur mujhe, Aurora ke sath ISS ki taraf le jaane laga....
Nic ne seedhe medical module ka hatch khola aur hume andar le gaya... Aurora ka helmet crack hone ke kaaran depressurized ho gaya tha... wo behosh thi aur CPR dene ki condition me naa toh main tha aur naa hee Nic + radiation ka bhi khatra tha. isliye Nic ne Aurora ko destiny lab me seal kar diya aur JIN Aurora ko hosh me laaya....
Day-78 ~Aftermath
Ek saptaah beet chukka hai jab humara Radiator-1 explode hua tha aur Radiator-1 ke explode hone ke baad ab Ammonia leakage ki bhi koyi problem nahi hai. Zvezda module Radiator-2 se connect kiya jaa chuka hai. lekin Aurora... wo ab pahle ki tarah nahi hai... uske chehre ka rang har beet-te samay ke sath badal raha hai.... wo ab puri tarah hosh me hai par most of the time... apni aankhe band kiye hue Destiny lab me sealed yaa toh leti rahti hai ya fir ... ya fir... sach me soti rahti hai... main us-se baat kar sakta hoon, use dekh sakta hoon. Par uske paas nahi jaa sakta, Radiation ke dar se use chhu nahi sakta. Aisa upar se order aaya hua hai , mera matlab neeche se. kabhi-kabhi baat karte hue uski jubaan bhi ladkhadane lagti hai. JIN din me do baar Aurora ki report Space Center bhejta hai aur Space Center ki mane toh Aurora ki haalat me koyi sudhar nahi hai aur Radiation ke kaaran din-ba-din uski haalat bigadti jaa rahi hai
Par ye radiation nahi hai, puri tarah nahi... kyunki ye yadi Radiation hota toh Aurora itne din tak zinda nahi rahti. Wo kabhi-kabhi mujhse baat karti hai. par jyada der ke liye nahi... this is fucking disturbing... I’m signing out.