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Rupali yun hi kuchh der tak Kamini ki diary ke pages palat kar dekhti rahi par vahan se kuchh hasil nahi hua. Usmein sirf kuchh bade shayron ki likhi hui ghazal thi, kuchh aisi bhi jo kayi singers ne gayi thi. Jab diary se kuchh hasil nahi hua to pareshan hokar Rupali ne Kamini ki almari kholi par vahan bhi sivay kapdo ke kuchh na mila. Rupali Kamini ke kamre ki har cheez yahan se vahan karti rahi aur jab kuchh na mila to thak kar vahin beth gayi.
Use Kamini ke kamre mein kaafi der ho gayi thi.Shaam dhalne lagi thi. Rupali ne ek aakhri nazar Kamini ke kamre mein phirayi aur uthkar bahar nikalne hi wali thi ke uski nazar Kamini ke bistar ki taraf gayi. Chadar uthakar bistar ke neeche dekha to hairan reh gayi. Neeche ek ash tray aur kuchh cigerettes ke packet rakhe the. Kuchh jali hui cigerettes bhi padi hui thi.
"Kamini aur cigerettes?" Rupali sochne pe majboor ho gayi kyunki Kamini hi ghar mein aisi thi jo apne doosre bhai Tej ko cigerette chhodne pe toka karti thi. Vo har baar yahi kehti thi ke use cigerette peene walo se sakht nafrat hoti hai to phir uske kamre mein cigerettes kya kar rahi hai? Ya vo bahar sirf tamasha karti thi aur apne kamre mein chup chap bethkar cigerette piya karti thi? Par agar vo peeti bhi thi to cigerette kahan se lati thi? Gaon mein jakar kharidti to poora gaon mein halla mach jaata?
Rupali hairani se cigerettes ki aur dekhti rahi. Shayad Rupali kisi aur se ye cigerette mangvati thi par kisse? Ghar mein kaun aisa tha jo ye khatra utha sakta tha kyunki agar kisi ko pata chal jata to Kamini ko to koi kuchh na kehta par us insaan ka gala zaroor kat jata jo Kamini ko cigerettes laake deta tha.
Rupali phir pareshan hokar kamre mein hi beth gayi. Ye sach tha ke Kamini hamesha use pareshani mein daal deti thi. Use dekhkar hi Rupali ko lagta tha ke vo jo dikhati hai vaisi hai nahi. Lagta tha jaise pata nahi kitne raaz usne apne dil mein dafan kar rakhe the. Rupali ne jab bhi usse baat karne ki koshish ki thi, Kamini har baar doosri taraf munh ghuma leti thi jaise usse nazar milane se ghabra rahi ho. Achanak Rupali ko kuchh dhyaan aaya aur use ek sawal ka jawab mil gaya. Ghar mein uske dewar Tej ke alawa cigerette sirf Bhushan piya karta tha. Baad mein doctor ke mana karne pe chhod di thi par jab Kamini yahan thi to vo cigerette rakha karta tha apne paas. Aur vahi ek aisa tha jo ek baar Thakur ke gusse ka samna kar sakta tha kyunki vo is ghar ke sabse purana naukar tha. Rupali ne soch liya ke vo Bhushan se is baare mein baat karegi.
Cigerettes vapis bistar ke neeche sarka kar Rupali uthi aur Kamini ki diary uthakar Kamre se bahar nikli. Kamre pe phir se usne lock lagaya aur diary padhti hui neeche ki aur chal di. Diary mein har shayri aisi thi jise padhkar sirf likhne wale ke dard ka andaza lagaya ja sakta tha. Har shayri mein maut ka zikr tha. Har page mein likhne wale ne apni mar jaane ki khwahish ka zikr kiya tha. Diary padhti hui Rupali apne kamre mein pahunchi aur diary ko samne rakhi table ki taraf uchhal diya. Diary thodi si khuli aur ek page usmein se nikal kar bahar gir pada. Rupali ne jhuk kar kagaz ka vo tukda uthaya aur padhne lagi
Tune mekhana nigahon mein chhupa rakha hai
Hoshwalo ko bhi deewana bana rakha hai
Naaz kaise na karun banda nawazi pe teri
Mujhse nacheez ko jab apna bana rakha hai
Har kadam sajde bashauk kiya karta hoon
Maine kaba tere kooche mein bana rakha hai
Jo bhi gham milta hai seene se laga leta hoon
Maine har dard ko taqdeer bana rakha hai
Bakhsh kar aapne ehsaas ki daulat mujhko
Ye bhi kya kam hai ke insaan bana rakha hai
Aey mere parda nasheen teri tavajjoh ke nisar
Maine ishq tera duniya se chhupa rakha hai
Rupali yun hi kuchh der tak Kamini ki diary ke pages palat kar dekhti rahi par vahan se kuchh hasil nahi hua. Usmein sirf kuchh bade shayron ki likhi hui ghazal thi, kuchh aisi bhi jo kayi singers ne gayi thi. Jab diary se kuchh hasil nahi hua to pareshan hokar Rupali ne Kamini ki almari kholi par vahan bhi sivay kapdo ke kuchh na mila. Rupali Kamini ke kamre ki har cheez yahan se vahan karti rahi aur jab kuchh na mila to thak kar vahin beth gayi.
Use Kamini ke kamre mein kaafi der ho gayi thi.Shaam dhalne lagi thi. Rupali ne ek aakhri nazar Kamini ke kamre mein phirayi aur uthkar bahar nikalne hi wali thi ke uski nazar Kamini ke bistar ki taraf gayi. Chadar uthakar bistar ke neeche dekha to hairan reh gayi. Neeche ek ash tray aur kuchh cigerettes ke packet rakhe the. Kuchh jali hui cigerettes bhi padi hui thi.
"Kamini aur cigerettes?" Rupali sochne pe majboor ho gayi kyunki Kamini hi ghar mein aisi thi jo apne doosre bhai Tej ko cigerette chhodne pe toka karti thi. Vo har baar yahi kehti thi ke use cigerette peene walo se sakht nafrat hoti hai to phir uske kamre mein cigerettes kya kar rahi hai? Ya vo bahar sirf tamasha karti thi aur apne kamre mein chup chap bethkar cigerette piya karti thi? Par agar vo peeti bhi thi to cigerette kahan se lati thi? Gaon mein jakar kharidti to poora gaon mein halla mach jaata?
Rupali hairani se cigerettes ki aur dekhti rahi. Shayad Rupali kisi aur se ye cigerette mangvati thi par kisse? Ghar mein kaun aisa tha jo ye khatra utha sakta tha kyunki agar kisi ko pata chal jata to Kamini ko to koi kuchh na kehta par us insaan ka gala zaroor kat jata jo Kamini ko cigerettes laake deta tha.
Rupali phir pareshan hokar kamre mein hi beth gayi. Ye sach tha ke Kamini hamesha use pareshani mein daal deti thi. Use dekhkar hi Rupali ko lagta tha ke vo jo dikhati hai vaisi hai nahi. Lagta tha jaise pata nahi kitne raaz usne apne dil mein dafan kar rakhe the. Rupali ne jab bhi usse baat karne ki koshish ki thi, Kamini har baar doosri taraf munh ghuma leti thi jaise usse nazar milane se ghabra rahi ho. Achanak Rupali ko kuchh dhyaan aaya aur use ek sawal ka jawab mil gaya. Ghar mein uske dewar Tej ke alawa cigerette sirf Bhushan piya karta tha. Baad mein doctor ke mana karne pe chhod di thi par jab Kamini yahan thi to vo cigerette rakha karta tha apne paas. Aur vahi ek aisa tha jo ek baar Thakur ke gusse ka samna kar sakta tha kyunki vo is ghar ke sabse purana naukar tha. Rupali ne soch liya ke vo Bhushan se is baare mein baat karegi.
Cigerettes vapis bistar ke neeche sarka kar Rupali uthi aur Kamini ki diary uthakar Kamre se bahar nikli. Kamre pe phir se usne lock lagaya aur diary padhti hui neeche ki aur chal di. Diary mein har shayri aisi thi jise padhkar sirf likhne wale ke dard ka andaza lagaya ja sakta tha. Har shayri mein maut ka zikr tha. Har page mein likhne wale ne apni mar jaane ki khwahish ka zikr kiya tha. Diary padhti hui Rupali apne kamre mein pahunchi aur diary ko samne rakhi table ki taraf uchhal diya. Diary thodi si khuli aur ek page usmein se nikal kar bahar gir pada. Rupali ne jhuk kar kagaz ka vo tukda uthaya aur padhne lagi
Tune mekhana nigahon mein chhupa rakha hai
Hoshwalo ko bhi deewana bana rakha hai
Naaz kaise na karun banda nawazi pe teri
Mujhse nacheez ko jab apna bana rakha hai
Har kadam sajde bashauk kiya karta hoon
Maine kaba tere kooche mein bana rakha hai
Jo bhi gham milta hai seene se laga leta hoon
Maine har dard ko taqdeer bana rakha hai
Bakhsh kar aapne ehsaas ki daulat mujhko
Ye bhi kya kam hai ke insaan bana rakha hai
Aey mere parda nasheen teri tavajjoh ke nisar
Maine ishq tera duniya se chhupa rakha hai