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Hello. Mera naam Abid hai. Main EK orphan hoon. Main orphanage mein hi bara hoa tha. Mujhe meri family k bare mein kuch bhi pata nai tha.
Na hi orphanage mein mere koi friends the. Par mene use apne pe havi nai hone diya. Mene mehnat ki aur scholarships milti gai.
Main hostel mein rehta tha. Iska rent me tuitions se pora karta tha. Main akhir kar ek din ek psychiatrist ban gia. Mera yeh profession choose krne ka reason, mera apna childhood tha.
Mene decision lia K main dosron ki help kron ga. Kio k mein akela tha. Par unke pass main hoon ga. Jald meri reputation ban gai.
22 ki age mein mera apna ghar aur gari thi. Kuch arse mein mene shadi Bhi kr li. Mujhe laga ab mujhe khushian mil gai hain.
Par main ghalat tha. Ek year bad, ek car accident mein wife ki death ho gai. Wo pregnant bhi thi. Pehle main himmat harne laga.
Phir mujhe ehsass hoa K agar main mar gia toh un logo ko Kon dekhe ga, jo mujh per depend Karte hain. Toh mene khud ko sambhala.
Ese ek year guzar gia. Main ab 25 ka tha. Par mujhe nai pata tha K ane wale waqt mein Kia hone wala hai. Jisne meri life change kr d.
Meri ek client bani. Jis se meri zindagi badli.....
Ek Monday main Apne ghar K bane office mein tha.
Ding! Dong! Ding! Dong!
Mene APNI watch dekhi, is waqt kisi client ne nai ana tha. Main utha aur ja k door open kia toh ek 25 years Ki lady, red saree mein thi.
Me" Yes. Main Apko kia help kr sakta hon."
Lady" Ap Dr Abid Hain."
Me" G, main hi hoon."
Lady" Kia hum andar baat kr sakte hain?"
Me" Sure. Please aiye."
Mene use rasta dia aur wo andar agai. Mene door band Kia aur use mere office room mein le gia.
Me" Ap pehle sofa pe bethen."
Lady " G."
Wo beth gai.
Me" G, ab mujhe bataen."
Lady" G, Mera naam Damini Gujjar Hai. Mujhe meri ek friend ne apko refer kia tha."
Wo kafi anxious thi. Apni saree K pallu ko grip ki hoi thi.
Me" Sabae se pehle ap ek gehri sans le. Ap pareshan Hai."
Usne ek deep breath Li. Ab wo calm nazar a rahi thi.
Me" Ab ap bataen Kia problem hai. Agar ap ab bhi easy nai hain toh is long sofe pe late Jaen."
Damini" Nai, me ab thek hon. Main modern Gujjar family se belong krti hon. Mere Ghar wale baki family ki tarah closed minded nai the."
Mene bhi note krna start Kia.
Damini" Jahan hamari baki family mein girls Ki parhai aur freedom pe rok tok thi. Wahin, Abu ne hame na sirf parhaya balk hame azadi bhi d."
Wo kafi happy thi btate hoe.
Damini" Par iska yeh matlab nai K hame khuli choot thi. Unhon ne aur Ami ne hame sahi aur galat mein farak bataya tha."
" Jiski wajah se Jahan hamari friends toh Thi par boys se hum door rahin. Hum unka trust nai torna chate the. Aise time guzra aur Abu ne hamari marriages achi families mein kr d."
Uska face calm tha.
Damini" Meri marriage unk business partner K bete se hoi. Sab bohat ache Hain. Aunty ne ma jesa pyar dia. Nanden aur jethani bhi achin thi."
" Even devar bhi, jo limits ko jante the. Phir uski bhi achi wife Mili. Hum sab Khushi se ji rahe the. Magar shaed kudrat ko kuch aur Manzoor tha."
Suddenly, wo sad ho gai. Mujhe ek familiar feeling hoi.
Damini " Ek din, jab Abu, mera Bhai aur mere sasur, jeth aur devar business K silsile mein bahir gae the... sniff....wo wapsi.... sniff....ek traffic accident.... sniff ....mein chal base... sniff..."
Wo rone lagi. Jesa mujhe laga, wesa hi tha.
Me" Ap khud ko sambhalen, mein apka dard samajh sakta hon."
Damini" Sniff...Kese..?"
Me" Kio K meri pregnant wife bhi ese hi chal basi."
Damini" KIA?!"
Wo shocked thi.
Me" G. Is liye me apka dard samajh sakta hon aur main khud ek orphan hoon."
Damini" Phir ap Kese jite hain."
Me" Ap logo K sahare. Yeh soch K logo ko Meri help chaye, mein khud ko samajha leta hon."
Mene muskrate hoe use dekha.
Me" Ap lucky Hain K Apko maa, behnen, bhabi, sass aur baki rishte mohjood hain. Ap unk sahare g sakti Hain."
Damini" Sniff...thanks. Mujhe nai pata tha K ap ....."
Me" Aksar hume Apne dukh bare lagte Hain."
Damini" G. Sahi kaha apne."
Wo kuch sochne lagi.
Me" Kia koi aur bhi baat Hai?"
Wo hich kichane lagi.
Me" Ghabrae nai, apki Har baat hamara secret hoga. Confidentiality mere profession ka part Hai."
Ab wo relax hoi.
Damini" Asal me...mere ane Ki wajah...mere husband Hain....."
Me" G, bolen."
Usne ek deep breath Li.
Damini " Meri first night kuch khass nai rahi. Wo bhi heran the. Hum dono ka first time tha. Unke koi affairs bhi nai the."
Uski nazren jhuki thi.
Damini" Mujhe laga wo nervous the even mein thi. Toh mene parva nai Ki. Par jab har time, yeh hone laga toh hum pareshan hogae."
Me" Kitni timing Hai unki?"
Damini" G...5 minutes."
Wo sharmane lagi.
Me" Ghabrae nai bolen. Dil halka Karen."
Usne mujhe dekha.
Damini" Usk bad unhone apne test krae to pata chala....K wo baap nai ban sakte."
Me" Apne ghar walon se baat Ki."
Damini" G. Pehle unhone Kaha K elaj kra K dekhte Hain. Toh mere sasur, jeth aur devar une kai hakeemon K pass le gae. "
Wo ab calm thi.
" 2 years kai course kie par kamyabi na mili. Phir unhone mere ghar walon se baat Ki aur Kaha K meri dosri marriage kra den."
Me" Phir Apne marriage Kio na Ki?"
Damini" Kio K Abu Ki nazar mein koi acha rishta na tha. Main bhi razi na hoi. Kia pata mujhe esi family Phir mile. Toh mene apna time, Ghar me lagaya."
Wo Phir sad ho gai.
Damini" Humne adoption ka bhi Socha tha. Par wo accident ho gia. Sniff....phir toh hamari family ko Nazar lag gai ho Jese.... sniff.."
Wo Phir rone lagi.
Me" Please hosla kren."
Mene use handkerchief dia. Usne Anson saaf kie.
Damini " Maika ho ya susral, sab pareshan rehne Lage. Dosri tarf sare business Ki zimadari mere husband pe agai."
Usne Apni nose wipe Ki.
Damini" Wo toh ab hafton bad Ghar ate Hain. Wo bhi kuch der K liye. Sex toh door Ki baat, ab toh wo pyar Ki baat bhi nai krte."
Wo ab open ho Gai Thi.
Me" Ap sara din Kia krti Hain."
Damini" Kuch khass nai, Ghar K kuch kaam. Kio K maids Hain hamari, jo Bachpan se hi hamari sath rehti Hain. Mere sasur ne unki help Ki thi, wo bheek mang rahi theen."
Me" Unki marriage..."
Damini" Nai Ki, wo yahi rehna chati thin."
Me" Sisters Hain?"
Damini" Nai, orphan Hain. Road pe Mili thin."
Me" Hmm."
Mene apne notes dekhe. Wo mujhe dekh rahi thi.
Me" Dekhen sab se pehle ap apna mood theek Karen aur life mein positivity laen."
Damini" Kese?"
Me" First, ap Apne in laws ke sath time spend kr sakti hain. Ap outings pe ja sakti hain."
Damini" Mujhe nai lagta jo halaat Hain, yeh possible ho ga."
Wo pareshan hogae.
Me" Phir Apne maike...."
Damini " Same... Sniff."
Wo rone lagi.
Me" Please calm down. Ap apni friends K sath ja sakti Hain, especially jisne mujhe refer kia."
Apne Anson saaf krte.
Damini" G, yeh ho sakta Hai."
Me" Ok, toh next week, ap Usk sath outing kren. Phir mujhe btaye ga."
Apni nose wipe krte.
Damini" Ok. Apki fees..."
Usne purse pakra. Mene hath utha K.
Me" Pehle ap ye week spend kren. Phir next time, agar faeda hoa to baat kren ge."
Wo mujhe herani se dekh rahi thi.
Damini" Ap wakei bohat ache Hain. Ok, main Phir ek week bad Aon g."
Phir mene use door tak ja k see off Kia. Phir Apne kaam mein lag gia. But yeh sitting ek new beginning thi hamari.
Na hi orphanage mein mere koi friends the. Par mene use apne pe havi nai hone diya. Mene mehnat ki aur scholarships milti gai.
Main hostel mein rehta tha. Iska rent me tuitions se pora karta tha. Main akhir kar ek din ek psychiatrist ban gia. Mera yeh profession choose krne ka reason, mera apna childhood tha.
Mene decision lia K main dosron ki help kron ga. Kio k mein akela tha. Par unke pass main hoon ga. Jald meri reputation ban gai.
22 ki age mein mera apna ghar aur gari thi. Kuch arse mein mene shadi Bhi kr li. Mujhe laga ab mujhe khushian mil gai hain.
Par main ghalat tha. Ek year bad, ek car accident mein wife ki death ho gai. Wo pregnant bhi thi. Pehle main himmat harne laga.
Phir mujhe ehsass hoa K agar main mar gia toh un logo ko Kon dekhe ga, jo mujh per depend Karte hain. Toh mene khud ko sambhala.
Ese ek year guzar gia. Main ab 25 ka tha. Par mujhe nai pata tha K ane wale waqt mein Kia hone wala hai. Jisne meri life change kr d.
Meri ek client bani. Jis se meri zindagi badli.....
Ek Monday main Apne ghar K bane office mein tha.
Ding! Dong! Ding! Dong!
Mene APNI watch dekhi, is waqt kisi client ne nai ana tha. Main utha aur ja k door open kia toh ek 25 years Ki lady, red saree mein thi.
Me" Yes. Main Apko kia help kr sakta hon."
Lady" Ap Dr Abid Hain."
Me" G, main hi hoon."
Lady" Kia hum andar baat kr sakte hain?"
Me" Sure. Please aiye."
Mene use rasta dia aur wo andar agai. Mene door band Kia aur use mere office room mein le gia.
Me" Ap pehle sofa pe bethen."
Lady " G."
Wo beth gai.
Me" G, ab mujhe bataen."
Lady" G, Mera naam Damini Gujjar Hai. Mujhe meri ek friend ne apko refer kia tha."
Wo kafi anxious thi. Apni saree K pallu ko grip ki hoi thi.
Me" Sabae se pehle ap ek gehri sans le. Ap pareshan Hai."
Usne ek deep breath Li. Ab wo calm nazar a rahi thi.
Me" Ab ap bataen Kia problem hai. Agar ap ab bhi easy nai hain toh is long sofe pe late Jaen."
Damini" Nai, me ab thek hon. Main modern Gujjar family se belong krti hon. Mere Ghar wale baki family ki tarah closed minded nai the."
Mene bhi note krna start Kia.
Damini" Jahan hamari baki family mein girls Ki parhai aur freedom pe rok tok thi. Wahin, Abu ne hame na sirf parhaya balk hame azadi bhi d."
Wo kafi happy thi btate hoe.
Damini" Par iska yeh matlab nai K hame khuli choot thi. Unhon ne aur Ami ne hame sahi aur galat mein farak bataya tha."
" Jiski wajah se Jahan hamari friends toh Thi par boys se hum door rahin. Hum unka trust nai torna chate the. Aise time guzra aur Abu ne hamari marriages achi families mein kr d."
Uska face calm tha.
Damini" Meri marriage unk business partner K bete se hoi. Sab bohat ache Hain. Aunty ne ma jesa pyar dia. Nanden aur jethani bhi achin thi."
" Even devar bhi, jo limits ko jante the. Phir uski bhi achi wife Mili. Hum sab Khushi se ji rahe the. Magar shaed kudrat ko kuch aur Manzoor tha."
Suddenly, wo sad ho gai. Mujhe ek familiar feeling hoi.
Damini " Ek din, jab Abu, mera Bhai aur mere sasur, jeth aur devar business K silsile mein bahir gae the... sniff....wo wapsi.... sniff....ek traffic accident.... sniff ....mein chal base... sniff..."
Wo rone lagi. Jesa mujhe laga, wesa hi tha.
Me" Ap khud ko sambhalen, mein apka dard samajh sakta hon."
Damini" Sniff...Kese..?"
Me" Kio K meri pregnant wife bhi ese hi chal basi."
Damini" KIA?!"
Wo shocked thi.
Me" G. Is liye me apka dard samajh sakta hon aur main khud ek orphan hoon."
Damini" Phir ap Kese jite hain."
Me" Ap logo K sahare. Yeh soch K logo ko Meri help chaye, mein khud ko samajha leta hon."
Mene muskrate hoe use dekha.
Me" Ap lucky Hain K Apko maa, behnen, bhabi, sass aur baki rishte mohjood hain. Ap unk sahare g sakti Hain."
Damini" Sniff...thanks. Mujhe nai pata tha K ap ....."
Me" Aksar hume Apne dukh bare lagte Hain."
Damini" G. Sahi kaha apne."
Wo kuch sochne lagi.
Me" Kia koi aur bhi baat Hai?"
Wo hich kichane lagi.
Me" Ghabrae nai, apki Har baat hamara secret hoga. Confidentiality mere profession ka part Hai."
Ab wo relax hoi.
Damini" Asal me...mere ane Ki wajah...mere husband Hain....."
Me" G, bolen."
Usne ek deep breath Li.
Damini " Meri first night kuch khass nai rahi. Wo bhi heran the. Hum dono ka first time tha. Unke koi affairs bhi nai the."
Uski nazren jhuki thi.
Damini" Mujhe laga wo nervous the even mein thi. Toh mene parva nai Ki. Par jab har time, yeh hone laga toh hum pareshan hogae."
Me" Kitni timing Hai unki?"
Damini" G...5 minutes."
Wo sharmane lagi.
Me" Ghabrae nai bolen. Dil halka Karen."
Usne mujhe dekha.
Damini" Usk bad unhone apne test krae to pata chala....K wo baap nai ban sakte."
Me" Apne ghar walon se baat Ki."
Damini" G. Pehle unhone Kaha K elaj kra K dekhte Hain. Toh mere sasur, jeth aur devar une kai hakeemon K pass le gae. "
Wo ab calm thi.
" 2 years kai course kie par kamyabi na mili. Phir unhone mere ghar walon se baat Ki aur Kaha K meri dosri marriage kra den."
Me" Phir Apne marriage Kio na Ki?"
Damini" Kio K Abu Ki nazar mein koi acha rishta na tha. Main bhi razi na hoi. Kia pata mujhe esi family Phir mile. Toh mene apna time, Ghar me lagaya."
Wo Phir sad ho gai.
Damini" Humne adoption ka bhi Socha tha. Par wo accident ho gia. Sniff....phir toh hamari family ko Nazar lag gai ho Jese.... sniff.."
Wo Phir rone lagi.
Me" Please hosla kren."
Mene use handkerchief dia. Usne Anson saaf kie.
Damini " Maika ho ya susral, sab pareshan rehne Lage. Dosri tarf sare business Ki zimadari mere husband pe agai."
Usne Apni nose wipe Ki.
Damini" Wo toh ab hafton bad Ghar ate Hain. Wo bhi kuch der K liye. Sex toh door Ki baat, ab toh wo pyar Ki baat bhi nai krte."
Wo ab open ho Gai Thi.
Me" Ap sara din Kia krti Hain."
Damini" Kuch khass nai, Ghar K kuch kaam. Kio K maids Hain hamari, jo Bachpan se hi hamari sath rehti Hain. Mere sasur ne unki help Ki thi, wo bheek mang rahi theen."
Me" Unki marriage..."
Damini" Nai Ki, wo yahi rehna chati thin."
Me" Sisters Hain?"
Damini" Nai, orphan Hain. Road pe Mili thin."
Me" Hmm."
Mene apne notes dekhe. Wo mujhe dekh rahi thi.
Me" Dekhen sab se pehle ap apna mood theek Karen aur life mein positivity laen."
Damini" Kese?"
Me" First, ap Apne in laws ke sath time spend kr sakti hain. Ap outings pe ja sakti hain."
Damini" Mujhe nai lagta jo halaat Hain, yeh possible ho ga."
Wo pareshan hogae.
Me" Phir Apne maike...."
Damini " Same... Sniff."
Wo rone lagi.
Me" Please calm down. Ap apni friends K sath ja sakti Hain, especially jisne mujhe refer kia."
Apne Anson saaf krte.
Damini" G, yeh ho sakta Hai."
Me" Ok, toh next week, ap Usk sath outing kren. Phir mujhe btaye ga."
Apni nose wipe krte.
Damini" Ok. Apki fees..."
Usne purse pakra. Mene hath utha K.
Me" Pehle ap ye week spend kren. Phir next time, agar faeda hoa to baat kren ge."
Wo mujhe herani se dekh rahi thi.
Damini" Ap wakei bohat ache Hain. Ok, main Phir ek week bad Aon g."
Phir mene use door tak ja k see off Kia. Phir Apne kaam mein lag gia. But yeh sitting ek new beginning thi hamari.