Update 9
"Shaheer jab tum ye parh rhe honge tab tak mein jaa chuki hongi bas jane se pehle apne dil ka haal batana chahti thi tumhein apne samne bitha k par suna nahi saki aur jis tareeke se sunaya aur tumhara jo response tha uske baad mujh me himmat nahi bachi thi k tumse milu isliye jaane se pehle is khath mein apne dil ka haal bata kar jaa rhi hu.
Shaheer tumhein yaad hoga tum ne aik bar Aizaz aur Saira se bola tha k tum logo ki wajah se meine zindagi bhar dost nahi bana paya. Mere halat bhi kuch aise hi the, paise aur daulat shuhrat mere paas zarur thi par mere dost nahi the. Meine apne ird gird matlabi logo k siva kisi ko nahi dekha bachpan se. School college mein jo ladkiya mere nazdeek aate wohh mere paise ki wajah se hi aate the isliye dil se kabhi kisi se dosti nahi kar payi mein.
Tumhare jaane k kuch hi time baad mujhe is baat ka ehsaas ho gaya tha k meine tumhare sath ghalat kiya. Mein sochti thi k kaash mein tumse hi dosti karti, tum bakiyo ki tarah matlabi to na hote. Khair mein jawan ho gayi par koi dost nahi thi meri. Aur kahi na kahi tumse bhi ghussa thi mein k tum kyu chale gaye warna tum hi mere ache dost bante.
Waqt guzarta gaya aur mein akeli hi rahi, jo dost school me bane, college aane k baad unka sath chhoot gaya, college me jo bane unka sath uni me chhoot gaya, jo uni me bane unka sath uni k baad chhoot gaya. Dost k naam pe sirf mamma baba hi the mere paas aur kashifa khala. Bas apne dil ki baat inse share karti thi.
Aur uperwale ne unko bhi mujhse chheen liya, jab mamma baba ka accident hua to mein toot chuki thi, mujhe sahare ki zarurat thi aur kashifa khala k ilawa mere paas aur koi sahara nahi thi. Aur jab tum aye tab tk mujhe tumse nafrat ho chuki thi, kyunke mere kaan bhar diye the mere mama mami ne tumhare khilaaf.
Isliye tumse ladai karti thi mein tumse hamesha. Fir tum mujhe le kar apne sath apne city le aaye. Aur hum har din ladte the kahi na kahi mujhe bhi woh ladai achi lagne lagi thi. Tumse larh k maza ata tha mujhe, atleast koi to tha mere life me jiske sath me masti karti thi. Tumhara mera khayal rakhna, tumhare mere liye khana banana mujhe boht boht acha lagta tha. Mujhe tumhari aadat ho gayi thi, tumse ladne ki, tumhare sath khana banane ki.
Aur jab tum kam k liye jaate to ajeeb si bechaini hoti thi, dil karta tha k tum mere paas hi raho aur mein tumhein tang karu. Fir jab mujhe kidnap kiya gaya to mere dil me tumhara hi khayal ata tha aur mujhe yaqeen tha k tum mujhe kuch bhi hone nahi doge. Tum mujhe har haal mein bachaoge. Mujhe us waqt pata nahi tha k mujhe tum per itna pukhta yaqeen kyu tha.
Tum ne mujhe bachaya aur mere sath Saira ko bhi jo tumhari ex thi. Uske baad jab tumne saira ko humare ghar laya to mujhe boht ghussa aya, mein bardasht hi nahi kar paa rhi thi k tum mere ilawa kisi aur k close ho. Mujhse dekha nahi jata tha tumhara uska care karna. Sach kahu to mein jalti thi Saira se, mujhe Jalan hoti thi. Aur kahi na kahi mujhe lagta tha k Saira ab bhi drama kar rhi hai, kyunke meine usko kahi bar phone use karte dekha tha woh bhi us waqt jab usko humare ghar aye kuch hi din hue the aur woh tumhare samne bimar hone ka drama kar rhi thi.
Khair jab hum tour pe gaye tab Fatima ne mujhe mere pyar ka ehsaas karaya, woh samajh gayi thi k mein tumse pyar karne lagi hu. Per tab bhi me ye baat accept karne ko tayar nahi thi kyunke mein tumhein apna bhai maanti thi. Fir usi ne mujhe samjhaya k hum dono me khoon ka rishta nahi hai, meri mamma ne tumhare dad se shadi ki thi per hum dono mein khoon ka rishta nahi hai aur hum shadi kar sakte hai. Jab mujhe is baat ka ehsaas hua to mujhe boht khushi huyi aur sath me udaas bhi huyi kyunke Saira wapas aa gyi thi tumhare life me aur tum har waqt uske sath rehte the.
Mujhe aaj bhi yaad hai woh din jab tumne apni fikar kiye bina mere liye talaab me khoode the, aur mujhe bachaya tha, mujhe aaj bhi yaad hai k tum kitna dar gaye the mujhe hosh me na ata dekh kar. Uske baad jo tumne mera khayal rakha, mujhe tum pe itna pyar aya k dil karta tha tumhein apne baaho me lu aur alag hone na du. Fir tumhare sath jab aik tent me soyi mein, to us raat me zindagi ke sab se ziada khush thi. Mujhe mere pyar ka ehsaas hone k baad tumhare sath aik tent me sote hue boht khushi ho rhi thi. Aur me soch rhi thi k kaash waqt yehi tham jaye aur mein tumhare baahon me aise hi rahu.
Magar meri qismat itni achi kaha jab hum wapas aye to sab kuch dheere dheere badal rha tha. Tum Saira k aur ziada close ho rhe the aur ye mujhse dekha nahi jaa rha tha. Fir mere bardasht se jab bahar hua sab kuch to baba k city shift ho gayi.
Mujhe aaj bhi woh din yaad hai, mein kitna khush thi. K tumhara birthday hai kal aur mein raat ko tumhein surprise dena chahti thi, aur mein socha tha k tumhein usi din apne dil ki baat bataungi. Sara din mein isi excitement mein guzaari aur sham ko tumhare liye cake aur balloons le ke mein tumhare ghar ki taraf nikli aur 12 baje ghar me pohonchi. Mein tumhein surprise dena chahti thi magar tum ne hi mujhe surprise kar diya.
Us din mera dil chikna choor ho chuka tha. Meine apni muhabbat ko kisi aur k baahon me dekha tha. Mujhe aisa lag rha tha jaise kisi ne mere moun pe kuch rakha hai aur saans lene nahi de rha. Mujhe lag rha tha mein mar hi jaungi fir me jab wapas jaane lagi to tumne bhi mera peecha kiya aur fir meine tumhein apne dil ki baat batayi. Mein toot chuki thi tumhein Saira k sath dekh k aur jiski wajah se me tumhein kabhi maaf nahi karne wali thi.
Jab tumne mera proposal reject kiya to mein aur toot gayi aur wapas yaha aa gyi. Ab mujhe yaha har cheez kaatne ko daurh rhi hai shaheer. Har jagah tum hi dikhte ho mujhe. Mein tumhare hi room me soti hu aaj kal taa ke mein tumhein feel kar saku yaha. Magar mujhe yaha ghutan bhi hoti hai. Jab mein tumhare bare me sochti hu to ye baat mere zehen me ati hai k tum saira k sath honge. Agar aise hi yaha rahi to mein khud ko maar dungi ya ghut ghut k mar jaungi. Isliye meine Faisla le liya hai.
Mein UK jaa rhi hu, waha baba k aik dost rehte hai aur unhone apne bete k liye mera rishta maanga tha jab baba zinda the, kyunke unka beta mujhe pasand karta hai. Per meine us waqt manah kiya tha, per ab jaisa k tum ne apne liye humsafar chun liya hai to mein bhi shadi kar leti hu shayad tumhein bhool jaau.
Shaheer meri wajah se dukhi na hona kabhi, aur Saira k sath khush raho. Mujhe us ladki per to bharosa nahi hai per mujhe yaqeen hai tumhara pyar usey badal degi, jaise mujhe badla tha. Apna boht khayal rakhna aur haan mujhe kabhi dhoondne ki koshish mat karna. Mein nahi chahti k tum dubara meri zindagi mein aao aur meri married life kharab ho.
Bye Forever Shaheer.
Durrani ne jab khath parha to uske paas kehne k liye kuch nahi tha. Woh chup chap letter shaheer ki taraf barhata hai. Shaheer apne me hi ghum sharab piye jaa rha tha. Durrani ne letter uske samne table pe rakha aur apna peg utha k peene laga.
"To tumhein lagta hai usne shadi kar liya hoga ? Tumse itna pyar karne k bawjood ?" Durrani kuch dair sochne k baad shaheer se kehta hai "Yehi wajah hai k tum usey dhoond nahi rhe ho right ?"
"Tumhein kya lagta hai meine usey nahi dhoonda ?" Shaheer apne laal hue aankhon se durrani ki taraf dekhta hai aur aik sip leta hai "Mein gaya tha UK aur dhoond bhi liya tha usey"
"Kya keh rhe ho tum ?" Shaheer ki baat sun kar durrani chonkte hue kehta hai "tumne usey dhoond liya tha aur usey apne dil ki baat nahi batayi tumne ? Tum usey lekar nahi aye apne sath ? Kyu ?"
"Kyunke boht dair kar chuka tha mein" shaheer k aankho me aansu aa gye the ye kehte hue "Usne shadi kar li thi waha"