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Amit Singh
Pachtawa
Pyaar ek aisi cheeez hai jo har insaan apni life me chata hai. Sadiyo se ishse achi khushi or ek alag sa ahsaash rha…har kisi ko kabhi na kabhi pyaar hota hai. Kai log ushe sahi waqt par pehchaan lete hai or kai nahi…..or jo waqt par apne pyaar ki qadar nahi krte baad me vo pachtate hai…… anyway me apni life story btata hu., me delhi me rehta hu or mera naam amit hai, vahi mere padosh me ek ladki thi jiska naam ISHIKA tha, maine ush waqt apne 12th ke exam hi diye the or vo ush time 12th me ayi thi uska ek bhai bhi tha jo ki mera kafi acha friend tha. Hum dono ki bachpan se normally hi baat cheet thi, but ushke liye meri feelings tab utpan hui jab maine ushe apne cousin ki shaadi ke liye parlour se pick up kiya…ushe dekh kr mere mann me ajeeb si madhosh kardene wali lehar jaagne lagi, ushi din se me ushse thoda friendly rehne laga, ushki study me help krne laga or most of the time ushse texting krta tha…may mai ushke bhai ki shadi thi jo ki uske gaon me honi thi lucknow se thoda aage, mere dost ne meri bhi ticket kra di shaadi ke liye…
Jab hum train me ja rahe the toh pure time hum me se koi bhi soya nahi, me bs ghuma fira ke ushse uski dil ki baat jaan na chara tha..or ushe apne pyaar ka izhaar krne ki koshish kr rha tha…hala ki samaj toh sab kuch chuki thi lekin anjaan ban rahi thi…agle din subha hum lucknow station pahuche..ushe bhook lag rahi thi toh me usko apne saath station ke bhaar kuch khilane leke gya….jaise hi me station se bhaar nikla to kafi log ushe ghoor rahe the mujhe bahut bura laga thodi der me ushne mera haath pakad liya or hum khane ke liye chal diye vapis station aake humne ek or train chang ki or uske gaon pahuch gaye..vha gaon me unke kaafi saare aam ke baag the so hum din me jab bhi khaalitime milta vahi jaake ek dushre se dehro baate kiya karte the, vo mera itna khyaal rakhti thi ki jaise ek biwi apne pati ka rakhti hai, vo jhe ek bhi kaam ni krne deti thi vha…mujhe ek alag hi ehsaas ho rha tha…raat me hum log chat pe soya karte the. Me takriban 15 din vha rukka or daily raat hum bs ek dusre ki aankho me dhero baate kiya krte the…ek raat jab maine ushse seedhe seeshe apni feelings ke baare me bta hi diya or vo sunn ke bahut khush hui or mujhe I LOVE YOU bol diya…agle din ushke gharme shadi se pehle koi function tha…
Ushke liye ushne mere face pe scrub and facial kiya…i can't describe that moment that was just awesome feeling…maine ushka haat dekha tha ushne mehndi banvai hui thi or uski hatheliyo pe mera naam likha hua tha…me uska itna pyaar dekh ke emotional ho gya tha…thodi der baad shaam ko party me hum sab dance kr rahe the achanak beech me vo vha se chali gayi maine ush waqt notice ni kiya kuch der dance krte krte meri najar saath vali chat par padi toh dekha ki vo chat par akeli khadi hai or bahut emotional la rahi thiitne me ek choti bachi mere paas ayi or boli ki Ishika i upar bula rahi hai…me turant chat pe gya or jaise hi me chat pe gya vo aake mere gale lag gayi rone lagi…mere puchne pe usne bta ki "mujhe darr hai kahi hum door na hojae…hum dono yahi chate the ki kaash ye moment yahi tham jaye…par waqt ko kon rok sakta tha mujhe agle din jaipur me apne entrance exam ke liye niklna tha…hum dono ne ush raat khana ni khaya or puri bs lete hue ek dusre ke haat pakde ankho hi ankho me baat krte rahe…agle din jab me ja rha tha tab vo mujhe milne b ni ayi or me b chala gya….jaipur pahuchne ke baat raat ek do baar ushse baat hui. Ek hafte jaipur rukne ke baad me delhi pahucha toh pta chala ki ushe aane me abhi 15 din karib or lagenge…vo 15 din mujhe 15 saal lagne lage…
Me ushse milne ke liye baitaab jo rha tha…jaise 15 din baad vo delhi ayi me mostly ushi ke ghar pe jana lage gali me aas padosh me sab ko pta chal gya tha. Uski kuch friends thi jinki sangati achi nahi th…mujhe kai dosto ne bola ki teri girlfriend uske sath ghum rhi ya kisi or se baat kr rahi hai…or jab maine uska phone check kiya toh usme bhi kai faltu ladko ke no. The…bs yahi se humare beech darare padne lagi…ab situation aisi ban gayi thi ki me uspe trust hi nahi kr pa rha tha…uski ek friend ka bhai uspe kaafi line marta tha…..or vo mostly apni ushi friend ke yha bheti rehti thi…ek din jab maine ushe phone kiya toh uska phone uski friend ke bhai ne uthaya..or mera or jyada dimag kharab ho gya or ushi raat maine ushe phone karke bahut suna or break up kr liya….2 3 din humari baat ni hui fir ushki call ayi or boli ki i'll do everything for u…tum jaise kahoge me vaise karungi just give me a chance…but meri ego ki vjha se maine ushe mana kr diya….ush waqt kariban 1 mahine ke liye toh mujhe thik laga…lekin dheere dheere mujhe yeh ehsaas hone laga ki me hi galat tha…or fir maine socha ki kuch try krta hu…
Tab mujhe pta chala ki uska affair ushi ladke se chal rha hai jo ki uski friend ka bhai hai….mujhe pta ki kahi na kahi vo mujhe aaj bhi like krti hai….aaj ish baat ko takreeban 3 raal hone ko arhe hai or me abhi bhi ushe baht yaad krta huor sayad yehi ek reason hai ki mere aas paas ladkiya hone ke bawjood bhi me akela hu….galti saari meri hi thi jo me apni relationship ko bacha ni saka…aaj uske pyaar ki yaado me bas pyaar ki shero shairiya hi likhta rehta hu….!! Sache pyaar ko sahi waqt pe pehchaan lena chaiye yaaro…varna baad me pachtaane ki seeva or kuch ni kr sakte. I MISS YOU DEAR….PLEASE FORGIVE ME….!!
Jab hum train me ja rahe the toh pure time hum me se koi bhi soya nahi, me bs ghuma fira ke ushse uski dil ki baat jaan na chara tha..or ushe apne pyaar ka izhaar krne ki koshish kr rha tha…hala ki samaj toh sab kuch chuki thi lekin anjaan ban rahi thi…agle din subha hum lucknow station pahuche..ushe bhook lag rahi thi toh me usko apne saath station ke bhaar kuch khilane leke gya….jaise hi me station se bhaar nikla to kafi log ushe ghoor rahe the mujhe bahut bura laga thodi der me ushne mera haath pakad liya or hum khane ke liye chal diye vapis station aake humne ek or train chang ki or uske gaon pahuch gaye..vha gaon me unke kaafi saare aam ke baag the so hum din me jab bhi khaalitime milta vahi jaake ek dushre se dehro baate kiya karte the, vo mera itna khyaal rakhti thi ki jaise ek biwi apne pati ka rakhti hai, vo jhe ek bhi kaam ni krne deti thi vha…mujhe ek alag hi ehsaas ho rha tha…raat me hum log chat pe soya karte the. Me takriban 15 din vha rukka or daily raat hum bs ek dusre ki aankho me dhero baate kiya krte the…ek raat jab maine ushse seedhe seeshe apni feelings ke baare me bta hi diya or vo sunn ke bahut khush hui or mujhe I LOVE YOU bol diya…agle din ushke gharme shadi se pehle koi function tha…
Ushke liye ushne mere face pe scrub and facial kiya…i can't describe that moment that was just awesome feeling…maine ushka haat dekha tha ushne mehndi banvai hui thi or uski hatheliyo pe mera naam likha hua tha…me uska itna pyaar dekh ke emotional ho gya tha…thodi der baad shaam ko party me hum sab dance kr rahe the achanak beech me vo vha se chali gayi maine ush waqt notice ni kiya kuch der dance krte krte meri najar saath vali chat par padi toh dekha ki vo chat par akeli khadi hai or bahut emotional la rahi thiitne me ek choti bachi mere paas ayi or boli ki Ishika i upar bula rahi hai…me turant chat pe gya or jaise hi me chat pe gya vo aake mere gale lag gayi rone lagi…mere puchne pe usne bta ki "mujhe darr hai kahi hum door na hojae…hum dono yahi chate the ki kaash ye moment yahi tham jaye…par waqt ko kon rok sakta tha mujhe agle din jaipur me apne entrance exam ke liye niklna tha…hum dono ne ush raat khana ni khaya or puri bs lete hue ek dusre ke haat pakde ankho hi ankho me baat krte rahe…agle din jab me ja rha tha tab vo mujhe milne b ni ayi or me b chala gya….jaipur pahuchne ke baat raat ek do baar ushse baat hui. Ek hafte jaipur rukne ke baad me delhi pahucha toh pta chala ki ushe aane me abhi 15 din karib or lagenge…vo 15 din mujhe 15 saal lagne lage…
Me ushse milne ke liye baitaab jo rha tha…jaise 15 din baad vo delhi ayi me mostly ushi ke ghar pe jana lage gali me aas padosh me sab ko pta chal gya tha. Uski kuch friends thi jinki sangati achi nahi th…mujhe kai dosto ne bola ki teri girlfriend uske sath ghum rhi ya kisi or se baat kr rahi hai…or jab maine uska phone check kiya toh usme bhi kai faltu ladko ke no. The…bs yahi se humare beech darare padne lagi…ab situation aisi ban gayi thi ki me uspe trust hi nahi kr pa rha tha…uski ek friend ka bhai uspe kaafi line marta tha…..or vo mostly apni ushi friend ke yha bheti rehti thi…ek din jab maine ushe phone kiya toh uska phone uski friend ke bhai ne uthaya..or mera or jyada dimag kharab ho gya or ushi raat maine ushe phone karke bahut suna or break up kr liya….2 3 din humari baat ni hui fir ushki call ayi or boli ki i'll do everything for u…tum jaise kahoge me vaise karungi just give me a chance…but meri ego ki vjha se maine ushe mana kr diya….ush waqt kariban 1 mahine ke liye toh mujhe thik laga…lekin dheere dheere mujhe yeh ehsaas hone laga ki me hi galat tha…or fir maine socha ki kuch try krta hu…
Tab mujhe pta chala ki uska affair ushi ladke se chal rha hai jo ki uski friend ka bhai hai….mujhe pta ki kahi na kahi vo mujhe aaj bhi like krti hai….aaj ish baat ko takreeban 3 raal hone ko arhe hai or me abhi bhi ushe baht yaad krta huor sayad yehi ek reason hai ki mere aas paas ladkiya hone ke bawjood bhi me akela hu….galti saari meri hi thi jo me apni relationship ko bacha ni saka…aaj uske pyaar ki yaado me bas pyaar ki shero shairiya hi likhta rehta hu….!! Sache pyaar ko sahi waqt pe pehchaan lena chaiye yaaro…varna baad me pachtaane ki seeva or kuch ni kr sakte. I MISS YOU DEAR….PLEASE FORGIVE ME….!!