Romance Choti si Bhool by Jatin(completed)

[Mr.X]

Goli kab maarni hai vo mai decide karunga bhabhi abhi aapko mere kuch sawaalo ka jawaab dena hai” — vo haath mein pistol utha kar bola.
“mere paas tumhaare in be-huda sawaalo ka koyi jawaab nahi hai. mai ja rahi hun, goli maarna chaahte ho to maar do, I am ready to die” —– maine ushki aur dekh kar gusse mein kaha
ye kah kar mai car ka darvaaja kholne ki koshis karne lagi, par vo nahi khula, shaayad ander se lock tha.
“bhabhi kaha jaa rahi ho, meri marji ke beena aap kahin nahi jaayengi, aaj aap meri mehmaan hai.bahut maje ley liye logo ne aapke saath, aaj meri baari hai. chaliye mai aapko apne hotel ley chalta hun. aapki havash bhi meet jaayegi aur meri saalo ki tamanna bhi puri ho jaayegi” —- vivek ne hanste huve kaha
mere purse mein mera mobile tha, mai ye soch rahi thi ki chupchaap kisi tarah police ko 100 no par phone kar deti hun, par ushka pura dhyaan mere upar hi tha. upar se ushne meri taraf pistol taan rakhi thi.
achaanak maine dekha ki ushka dhyaan dushri taraf hai, maine foran mobile nikaala aur 100 no par dial kiya.
par maine abhi dial kiya hi tha ki ushne mobile cheen kar kaat diya aur bola, “galat baat… bhabhi, aap mujhe bhi dhoka de rahi hai, lagta hai, dhoka dene mein expert ho gayi hai aap. Sanjay ne to kuch nahi kaha aapko par mai aapko aaj saja dunga. Ye saja ish baat ki hogi ki aapne mujhe ignore karke dushre logo ko apni jawaani ke maje diye aur mai yu hi aapko dur se dekh dekh kar apna dick masalta raha. aaj vakt aa gaya hai ki aapke holes ko mai bhi check kar lun, dekhun to sahi ki kitne gahre hole hai aapke. Vaise mai ek baat bata dun ki mera dick bada hai aur aapke jaisi slut ke liye hi bana hai.
mere sabar ka bandh tut gaya aur maine gusse mein ushke gaal par inti jor se chaanta maara ki ushka chehra laal ho gaya. Ushke haath mein jo pistol thi ushki bhi maine koyi parvaah nahi ki. jyada se jyada vo kya karta, mujhe goli hi maarta. aisi jeendagi se mujhe maut jyada pyari nazar aa rahi thi
“you bicth, tumhaari itni himmat mai pyar se baat kar raha tha aur tumne chaanta maar diya, ab tum nahi bachogi, bahut ho gayi pyar se baate” — vo gusse mein jhalla kar bola.
ye kah kar ushne meri kanpatti par pistol rakh di aur bola, “bata deti hai kya araam se ya phir tera ** karun. Aaj mai kishi bhi had tak jaa sakta hun”
maine pistol pakad kar kaha maaro goli vivek, tum wait kish baat ka kar rahe ho, bhul jao ki mai tumhaare jaise neech ke jhaanse mein aaungi. Come on do it” maine cheella kar kaha
pata nahi mujhe kya ho gaya tha. mai maut ke dar se ajaad ho gayi thi. kishi ne sach hi kaha hai ki jab inshaan maut ke dar ko bhula deta hai to kuch bhi kar sakta hai. aisa hi kuch mere saath ho raha tha.
vivek ne achaanak mere sar par jor se vaar kiya aur mai chakkar kha kar behosh ho gayi. Behosh hote hote maine apne sar par haath laga kar dekha. Mere sar se khun bah raha tha. agle hi pal mai gahri neend mein sho gayi.
Jab meri aankh khuli to maine khud ko vivek ke haato mein jhulte huve paaya. Vo mujhe dono haato mein utha kar chale ja raha tha. maine chaaro taraf dekha to mere rongate khade ho gaye. Har taraf jhaadiya hi jhaadiya thi. vo mujhe kishi jangal mein ley aaya tha.
Maine cheella kar kaha, “chhodo mujhe vivek, ye kaha ley aaye mujhe, jaldi chhodo varna mujh se bura koyi nahi hoga”
“Ye jangal hai bhabhi, yaha charo taraf jhadiya hi jhadiya hai, aapko to jhadiyon mein marvaane ka bada shonk hai na, apne ghar ke peeche jhadiyon mein hi to karva rahi thi ush din aap un logo se. ishliye mai aapko jangal mein ley aaya. Kya pata aapka man ban jaaye. dekh leeziye aur apni man pasand jhadiya chun leeziye, vahi jaakar aapki chut maarunga” —- vo chalte-chalte hanste huve bola.
mai ushki bahon mein jor jor se chatpatta rahi thi.par ushki bhujaao mein kaafi bal tha. vo badi majbuti se mujhe thaame huve tha.
ush vakt mujhe bahut dar lag raha tha. mere haath paanv kaanp rahe the. Ye sab ishliye tha kyonki mai nahi chaahti thi ki mere saath ** ho.
** kisi bhi ladki ke liye maut se bhi badi saja hoti hai. ** ke baad aurat ki dignity aur ushke aurat hone ka garv ushki jeendagi se cheen jaata hai.
Maine kabhi sapne mein bhi nahi socha tha ki mere saath ** hoga, par mai ush vakt aise haalaat mein thi ki mera bachana naamumkin nazar aa raha tha.
Vivek ne mujhe ek ghani jhaadi ke peeche ley jaa kar patak diya. mera muh seedha jamin par laga. jamin par ghaas nahi thi aur charo taraf mitti hi mitti thi. jaise hi mera muh jamin par laga meri aankho mein mitti ghuss gayi.
Shaam ka vakt tha, andhere ki chaadar charo taraf failne lagi thi. bas halki halki roshni baaki thi. upar se shunshaan jangal ki vo badi badi jhaadiyan. Aisa lag raha tha ki jaise kisi horror movie ka daraavana scene chal raha ho. itna bhayaanak scene maine jeendagi mein nahi dekha tha.
Par maine man hi man mein himmat na haarne ka fainsala kiya. Mai aakhri dam tak ladna chaahti thi. ** mujhe kisi bhi haalat mein manjoor nahi tha.
Maine upar ki aur karvat li to dekha ki vivek apni pant utaar raha hai.
Jaise hi ushne apni pant utaar kar ek taraf rakhi maine apni right leg se jor se ushke testicle par parhaar kiya.
“Oooohhhh, saali kamini, kuttiya teri itni himmat, aaj tak kisi ki mere saath aisa karne ki himmat nahi huyi” —- vo dard se cheellate huve bola aur mere baal pakad liye.
“vivek jo tum chaahte ho, vo mai kabhi nahi hone dungi” —– maine jor se cheella kar kaha.
Haan haan tujhe to bas vo kamina billu hi chaahiye. billu mar chuka hai meri jaan, aao na ab mai tumhaari pyaas bhujaata hun. khusi se nahi dogi to jabardasti dogi, deni to tumhe padegi hi, soch lo kaise dena chaahti ho.
Maine ushke muh par thuk diya
Aur agle hi pal ushne mere chehre par thappad barshaane shuru kar diye.
Vo bahut der tak mere gaal par thappado ki bochaar karta raha.
Ushne mujhe itna maara ki mai chakkar kha kar gir gayi.
Ushne mujhe ghuma kar apne neeche ulta kar diya.
Mai pet ke bal mitti par padi thi, aur vo mere upar khada tha.
Ushne meri jeans ke button khol kar ushe neeche sarka diya aur mere nitambo par jor se thappad maar kar bola, “pehle tumhaari gaand hi maarta hun,……. aayi mujh par thukne waali”
mera shrir jawaab de chuka tha par phir bhi maine uthne ki koshis ki par ushne meri peeth par ek laat maari aur mai dhadaam se jamin par vaapas gir gayi.
Ish baar mera maatha seedha dhul bhari jamin se ja takraaya aur meri aankho mein aur jyada mitti bhar gayi.
Aisa lag raha tha ki ab mera ** ho kar rahega.
Maine man hi man mein kaha, hey bhagvaan agar ye mere paapo ki saja hai to sach kahti hun ki bahut badi saja hai, mujhe nahi lagta ki kisi ko bhi aisi saja milni chaahiye.
Vivek mere upar late gaya aur mere baalo ko pakad kar kheenchte huve bola, laat maarti hai mere lund par huu……, dekh mai teri gaand kaise phaadta hun.
Mujhe kuch samajh nahi aa raha tha ki ab kya karun. Mai bas vaha pade pade chatpata rahi thi.
Maine ek aakhri koshis ki.
Maine ushe rote huve appeal ki, “vivek please ruk jao, aisa mat karo, tum to aise nahi the, tumhe aaj kya ho gaya hai, tum mujhe goli maar do par ye sab mat karo please, mai maanti hun maine sanjay ko dhoka diya hai, par….”
Ushke baad kuch aisa huva jishki maine sapne mein bhi kalpana nahi ki thi. mujhe vaha kisi aur ki awaaj shunaayi di
“Ye aisa hi hai ritu, tum ish haraami ko nahi jaanti ye aisa hi hai”
ye awaaj shun kar mai ek dam se chonk gayi, kyonki vo mujhe jaani pehchaani si lagi. Mai man hi man mein soch rahi thi ki jishki ye awaaj hai ushka vaha hona namumkin hai.
“kaun ho tum chhodo mujhe varna” — ye vivek ki awaaj thi. vo gidgida raha tha.
achaanak mujhe mahsush huva ki vivek mere upar nahi hai. ushe mere upar se kheench liya gaya tha.
phir maine mahsush kiya ki koyi meri jeans upar chadha raha hai.
mujhe bachaane vaha jangal mein kaun aa gaya, yahi sawaal mere man mein ghum raha tha.
maine gardan ghuma kar dekha. Abhi tak puri tarah se andhera nahi huva tha aur roshni ek tarah se theek thaak thi. par meri aankho mein itni mitti ghussi huyi thi ki, mai theek se dekh hi nahi paayi ke vaha vivek ke alawa dushra kaun hai
mujhe bas itna hi deekha ki koyi vivek ko buri tarah maar raha hai. vivek mere paas hi pada huva maar kha raha tha.
aaahh no….vivek ki cheenkh pure jangal mein gunj rahi thi.
“saale teri itni himmat aaj tujhe jeenda nahi chhodunga mai” — phir se vahi awaaj aayi
mai itni utshuk ho rahi thi ki foran himmat karke vaha se uthi aur maine apni aankho par se mitti hata kar dekhne ki koshish ki.
jo maine dekha ush par vishvaas karna mushkil tha.
meri aankho ke saamne billu, vivek ko buri tarah maar raha tha.
ushe vaha dekh kar mujhe apni aankho par vishwaas nahi ho raha tha. mai bas ushe ek tak dekhe ja rahi thi.
vo jeenda kaise hai ? vo vaha kaise aaya ? mumbai mein vo kya kar raha hai ?
ye kuch aise sawaal the jo mere deemag mein billu ko vaha dekh kar ek dam se ghum gaye
yahi kal ki sabse chonkaane waali ghatna thi.
Billu ko vaha dekh kar mai gahre shock mein thi. yahi sawaal man mein uth raha tha ki aakhir vo bach kaise gaya.
Mai soch rahi thi ki agar vo jeenda hai to vo kaun the jo neha ke anushaar ashok ke saath maare gaye the.
Khair vo meri aankho ke saamne tha aur vivek ko buri tarah maar raha tha.
Koyi bhi agar aise haalaat mein aapki ijjat bachayega to aap ushka ahshaan maanenge
Par aap kya kahenge ush inshaan ko jo pehle to aapko barbaad karta hai aur phir aapki ijjat bachaane aa jata hai.
Samajh nahi aa raha tha ki billu ko vaha dekh kar mai kaise react karun. Ushke kaaran mera sab kuch barbaad ho chuka tha. aur ab vo mere saamne mera ** karne ki koshis karne waale vivek ko maar raha tha.
agar vivek mere sharir ka ** karna chaahta tha to, billu ush se bhi badh kar mere charitra ka ** pehle hi kar chuka tha.Ishliye mai billu ko apna rakhvaala kaise maan sakti thi.
Aakhir vahi to tha vo, jishne badi chaalaaki se mujhe paap ke daldal mein fansaya tha.
Vaha khade khade, mujhe yaad aaya ki kaise ushne ek din apne paanv mein chicken ka blood laga kar mujhe badi chaalaki se mere ghar ke peeche bulaaya tha. kah raha tha paanv mein chot lagi hai, khun bah raha hai, kuch karo na. aur phir ushke baad ushki vo emotional baatein.

 

[Rahul]

wonderfull update

 

[Rahul]

waiting new update

 

[Mr.X]

wonderfull update

thanks

 

[Mr.X]

waiting new update

update aa rahe

 

[Mr.X]

Khud to ushne mujhe jaise taise fansa kar mere saath kiya hi, phir mujhe badi chaalaaki se ashok ke saamne bhi parosh diya. Aur phir ush din, ashok aur raju ko bhi saath ley aaya . kya kuch nahi kiya tha ushne mere saath. Ushne jo mere saath kiya tha vo mere sharir ka ** na sahi par mere character ka ** jaroor tha. agar billu meri jeendagi mein na aata to na to mujhe ashok ka shikaar hona padta, na ush cycle wale ki bhaddi baate shun-ni padti aur na hi vivek ki itni himmat hoti ki mujh se itni behuda baate kare aur mera ** karne ki koshish kare. in sab baato ke kaaran mujhe billu ka vaha hona kudrat ka ek ghinona majaak lag raha tha.
Maine dekha ki billu aur vivek mein bahut tagadi haatha-paayi chal rahi thi. kabhi vivek haavi hota deekhta tha to kabhi billu. dauno ek dushre se buri tarah ulajh rahe the.
“Saale tu bach gaya haan, par aaj mere haato se nahi bachega” —- vivek ne billu ke pet mein laat maarte huve kaha.
Agle hi pal vivek neeche pada tha aur billu phir se ushki dhunaayi kar raha tha.
Achaanak meri nazar jamin par padi pistol par gayi. vo vivek ki pant ke paas hi padi thi.
Mai ladkhadaate huve pistol ke paas pahunchi aur kaanpte haato se pistol utha li.
Maine pistol ko dono haatho mein pakda aur un dauno ki taraf taan di. Maine kisi ki aur nishaana nahi lagaaya bas goli chala di…….. mai soch rahi thi ki kisi ko bhi lag jaaye, dauno mere liye ek samaan hai.
Par goli kisi ko nahi lagi, pata nahi kaha chali gayi.
Haan itna jaroor huva ki ek pal ko dauno ruk gaye.
“Bhabhi ruko, goli mat chalaao,I am sorry, mai bahak gaya tha, aap sach kah rahi thi, mai aaj hosh mein nahi hun” —- vivek meri aur gidgida kar bola.
agle hi pal billu ne ushke upar laato ki bochaar kar di aur bola, “saale tu kab hosh mein rahta hai”
Maine ek aur fire kiya aur billu ladkhada kar gir gaya.
“Bhabhi acha kiya, bahut acha kiya, ek aur goli maaro ish saale ko” —- vivek meri aur gidgida kar bola.
“shut up you bastard” —- maine cheella kar kaha aur vivek ki taraf pistol kar ke goli chala di.
“Aahhh…. No… bhabhi please mujhe maaf kar do mai bahak gaya tha” —— vivek dard se cheella kar bola.
goli shaayad vivek ke pet mein lagi thi. goli lagte hi vo bhi billu ke paas gir gaya.
“Ritu, banduk mujhe do, mai ishka khel khatam karta hun” —- billu meri aur dekh kar bola.
billu apni taang pakde pada tha.
tab maine socha, “acha ishki taang mein goli lagi hai, ishke to sar mein goli lagni chaahiye thi.”
aur maine ish baar billu ki aur fire kiya
lekin ye nishaana mai chuk gayi.
par ek dam se vivek ne furti se meri aur badh kar mere haath se pistol cheen li aur mere muh par ek chaanta maara, jishke kaaran mai ladkhada kar gir gayi.
“saali mujhe maaregi, mai aaj tum dauno ki yahi kabar khod dunga” —- vivek cheella kar bola.
Ye kah kar ushne pistol meri kanpatti par rakh di aur bola, “ab mai tumhe bataata hun ki goli kaise chalaayi jaati hai”
Maine bhagvaan ko yaad kiya aur man hi man mein prayer ki, “hey bhagvaan agar ab mujhe mere paapo ki saja mil chuki ho to mujhe maaf kar do, mere chintoo ka khyaal rakhna”
Par agle hi pal maine mahsush kiya ki meri kanpatti par pistol nahi hai.
Maine dekha ki billu vivek ke upar hai aur pistol mujh se thodi dur jamin par padi hai. shaayad billu ne vivek par peeche se hamla kiya tha, aur ushke haath se pistol dur ja giri thi.
Mai jamin par rengte huve pistol ke paas pahunch gayi.
Maine pistol uthaayi hi thi ki vivek kisi tarah se vaha se bhaag khada huva. Maine turant ushki aur fire kiya aur vo gir gaya. Ish baar goli ushki peeth par lagi thi.
Billu jamin par pada tha, vo apni right leg ko pakad kar dard se karaah raha tha.
Mai himmat karke khadi huyi aur ushki taraf pistol taan di.
“Aise nahi ritu, aisey mat maaro mujhe, ruko mai thoda karib aa jaata hun, tab araam se nishaana laga kar maarna, mai tumhaare kadmo mein marna chaahta hun” —- vo dard se karaahte huve bola.
“band karo ye bakwaas billu, mere karib mat aana, mujhe ab tumhaare baare mein sab kuch pata hai, badi chalaaki se barbaad kiya hai tumne mujhe, aaj mai tumhe jeenda nahi chhodungi” —– maine cheella kar kaha.
“Bilkul ritu, mai bhi yahi chaahta hun ki agar meri maut ho to tumhaare haato se ho, mai tumhaara gunahgaar hun” — vo meri taraf rengte huve bola.
“ruk jao billu varna mai goli chala dungi” —- maine phir se ushe cheella kar kaha.
Par vo nahi ruka aur jamin par rengte huve meri taraf badhne laga. Maine ushke upar fire kiya par goli na jaane kaha lagi, kyonki vo ruka nahi aur mere kadmo ke bilkul paas aa kar late gaya.
“Kaha tha na aisey mat maaro, marne waale ki aakhri khavahish ka dhyaan rakha jaata hai, lo ab maaro mujhe, goli seedhi sar mein maaro, mai tumhaare kadmo mein hi marna chaahta hun” —- billu ne mere kadmo par haath rakh kar kaha.
Maine kaha, “band karo ye naatak billu, kuch bhi ho jaaye, aaj mai tumhaari baato ke jaal mein nahi fansungi”
Billu ne mere paanv par sar rakh diya aur bola, “naatak nahi hai ye, mai tumhaara gunahgaar hun, mai maanta hun. mumbai mai bas tumhaare liye hi aaya hun. peechle hafte se roj chhup chhup kar tumhe dekh raha hun. tumhaara saamna karne ki himmat nahi ho rahi thi meri. Par aaj maine jab tumhe vivek ki gaadi mein baithte dekha to maine tumhaara peecha kiya. mujhe dar tha ki vivek jaroor koyi na koyi ghinoni harkat karega. Par raste mein mera ek chota sa accident ho gaya, jishke kaaran yaha pahunchne mein der ho gayi. vivek ki gaadi mujh se kaafi aage nikal kar aankh se ojhal ho chuki thi. mai har taraf tumhe dhund raha tha. jab ish jangal ki taraf aaya to dekha ki baahar sadak par vivek ki gaadi khadi thi, ushi se mujhe laga ki vo tumhe jaroor yaha laaya hai”
“Ish sab se tum kya saabit karna chaahte ho billu, kuch bhi karlo par mai tumhe kabhi maaf nahi karungi, tumne mere saath bahut ganda khel khela hai” —- maine bhavuk ho kar kaha.
“Jaanta hun ritu, aur mai bhi khud ko shaayad kabhi maaf na karun. Apni bhool ka ahsaash mujhe tab huva jab mujhe ush din goli lagne ke baad hosh aaya. Mujhe yakin nahi tha ki mai bachunga. Par veena aunty ne mujhe bacha liya. mai badle ki aag mein apne hosh kho baitha tha ritu, mujhe maaf kar do” — billu gidgidaate huve bola.
“mai kya tumhe maaf karungi billu, mai to khud ko hi maaf nahi kar paa rahi hun, tumhaari to baat hi dur hai” — ye kahte huve meri aankho mein aanshu utar aaye.
Maine pistol billu ke sar par rakhne ki bajaaye apni kanpatti par laga di, aur kaha, “mujhe nahi pata ki tumne mere saath aisa kyon kiya aur na mujhe ab kuch jaan-na hai, mai itna jaroor jaanti hun ki jitni galti tumhaari thi, utni hi meri thi, ishliye mai tumhe maarne ki bajaaye ab khud hi mar rahi hun”

 

[Mr.X]

Nahi ritu, maarna hai to mujhe maaro, tumhaari koyi galti nahi hai, tumhaare saath jo kuch bhi huva vo mere kaaran huva hai, mujhe goli maaro ritu…. Please” —- billu mere paanv pakad kar bola.
maine fire kar diya. aur vakt jaise tham gaya.
Par kishmat ko meri maut manzoor nahi thi. banduk ki goliya khatam ho chuki thi.
mai vaha se hat gayi aur ladkhadaate huve vaha se chal padi. Andhera ghir aaya tha aur jangal mein tarah tarah ki bhayaanak awaaje gunj rahi thi.
mujhe kuch nahi pata tha ki sadak kish taraf hai, mai bas bina soche samjhe chal padi.
Har inshaan ki jeendagi mein ek aisa pal aata hai, jab vo apne ander jhaank kar dekhta hai ki vo vaakayi mein kya hai. mai ush vakt ishi avastha mein thi. par mujhe ush vakt apne ander jangal se bhi bhayaanak andhera nazar aa raha tha.
Jo kuch vivek ne mere saath kiya tha vo meri bachi kuchi aatma ko maar gaya tha. baaki sab kuch to billu pehle hi khatam kar chuka tha.
“Ritu ruko ye jangal bahut bada hai, kaha ja rahi ho, tum bhatak jaaogi. mai bhi aa raha hun” —– billu ne mere peeche se cheella kar kaha.
Maine peeche mud kar dekha, vo ladkhadaata huva mere peeche aa raha tha. maine ek pathar uthaaya aur ushki aur fenk kar maara. Mujhe yakin nahi huva, vo seedha ushke sar par jaakar laga aur vo gir gaya.
Jab mujhe hosh aaya tha to maine dekha tha ki vivek mujhe kish raste se laaya tha. ushi raste par mai aage badh rahi thi, bina kisi dar ke, bina kisi khauf ke.darta vo hai jishke paas khone ko kuch bacha ho. Mere paas khone ko kuch nahi tha.
Chalte chalte mujhe dur se sadak dheekhaayi di.
Maine sadak par vivek ki car khadi dekhi. Car se thodi dur ek bike khadi thi. shaayad vo billu ki thi. vivek ki car mein mera purse tha aur mobile tha. maine ek bada sa pathar uthaaya aur jor se car ki khidki mein maara. Khidki ka sheesa thoda chatak gaya. Maine ek aur pathar maara aur vo itna tut gaya ki mai ander haath daal kar apna purse nikaal sakun.
Maine purse nikaala aur shunshaan sadak par chal padi. Dur dur tak koyi nahi tha. mere sar par khun laga tha, chehre par mitti thi aur saare kapde dhul se bhare the. Kuch nahi pata tha ki kish taraf jaaun, mai bas chale ja rahi thi.
Koyi 5 minut baad mujhe ek car aati deekhaayi di. Maine socha koyi taxi hogi to hi haath dungi.
Par vo taxi nahi thi, ishliye maine haath nahi diya. aur vo car aage badh gayi.
Mujh se thoda aage ja kar car achaanak ruk gayi aur peeche ki taraf meri aur aane lagi.
“Arey aap ish shunshaan sadak par akeli kya kar rahi hai, ohh aapke sar par to khun laga hai, sab theek to hai” ——- car mein baithi lady ne pucha.
Vo lady akeli thi aur khud hi car drive kar rahi thi.
Maine kaha, “aap please mujhe aisi jagah chhod dijiye jahaan se mai taxi ley kar colaba ja sakun”
“Arey haan haan aao baitho, ye sab kya huva hai aapke saath” ? —— ush lady ne pucha.
“Kuch nahi… jeendagi ne ek bhadda majaak kiya hai, aap please mujhe jaldi kahi chhod do” —- maine rote huve kaha.
“Police ko phone karun kya” ? — ush lady ne pucha.
“Ab police aakar kya karegi jo hona tha so ho gaya” —– maine ush lady se kaha.
“Kya tumhaare saath ** huva hai” ? agar aisa hai to hamein turant police station chalna chaahiye” —- ush lady ne kaha.
“Nahi ** se bhi jyada bhayaanak. aap mujh se kuch mat pucho, mai kuch bhi kahne ki haalat mein nahi hun” —- maine ush lady ko kaha.
“Theek hai….theek hai, aap araam se baitho mai abhi aapko kisi taxi tak pahuncha deti hun” —— vo lady boli.
ushne mujhe ek taxi waale ke paas utaar diya. taxi waala bhi mujhe aisi haalat mein dekh kar hairaani mein bola, “madam ye kya huva hai, aapke sar par to khun laga hai”
maine kaha, “kuch nahi mai gir gayi thi, mujhe jaldi colaba ley chalo”
“Colaba mein kaha jaana hai madam” —- ushne pucha.
Maine kaha, “hotel taj ke paas”
Jaise hi mai apne flat ke baahar pahunchi vaha sidharth khada tha.
Vo mujhe dekh kar bola, “arey ye kya huva hai tumhe ritu, ye chehre par mitti aur ye sar par khun, kaise huva ye sab, mai kab se phone laga raha hun, phone bhi nahi uthaaya tumne”
Mai itni bhaavuk ho uthi ki sidharth ke gale lag kar phoot phoot kar rone lagi
“Arey kya huva ritu, bataao to sahi” —- sidharth ne mere sar par haath rakh kar pucha
par mai kuch bhi bataane ki haalat mein nahi thi
acha chalo pehle tumhaare flat mein chalte hai, araam se baith kar baat karenge” —- sidharth ne mere sar par haath phiraate huve kaha.
Sidharth mera haath pakad kar mujhe mere flat par ley aaya.
“Mai kab se tumhaara phone try kar raha hun, aaj tumhe kuch surprise dena tha, lekin khud tumhe aisi haalat mein dekh kar surprise ho gaya, bataao ye sab kaise huva”
“sidharth mai tumhe kuch nahi bata sakti, ye ek lambi kahaani hai” —- maine kaha
“theek hai ritu tum chinta mat karo baad mein araam se baat karenge. par tumhaare sar par chot lagi hai, mai kisi doctor ko ley kar aata hun” —- sidharth ne kaha.
“Nahi sidharth mein khud patti baandh lungi, doctor ki biwi rah kar bahut kuch seekha hai, mere paas sab samaan hai, tum abhi jao mai abhi akeli rahna chaahti hun” —- maine sidharth ki aur dekh kar kaha
“ritu kya mera tum par itna bhi hak nahi hai ki mai sukh dukh mein tumhaare saath rah sakun. Dekh raha hun ki jab se mili ho, mujh se dur dur rahne ki koshish karti ho. Kya tum vahi ritu ho jo kabhi mujh se shaadi karne ko taiyaar thi” —- sidharth ne pucha
“Nahi sidharth mein vo ritu nahi hun, vo ritu mar chuki hai, tum please abhi jao, baad mein baat karenge” —- maine nazre jhuka kar kaha. aisey kadve bol mai ushki aur dekh kar nahi bol sakti thi.
“theek hai mai ja raha hun, par yaad rakhna mai tumhe bahut pyaar karta hun” ——- vo jaate huve bola.
maine ushke jaane ke baad darvaaja band kar liya aur darvaaje par khade khade hi aanshu bahaane lagi.
sidharth mujhe pyaar de raha tha, aur mai ushe khud se dur dhakail rahi thi. dar-asal mai nahi chaahti thi ki mere jaisi ladki ushki jeendagi mein aaye. vo bahut acha hai, par mai kya hun mai ache se jaanti hun. mai apni baaki ki jeendagi ka safar akele bitaana chaahti hun…………. bilkul akele.
Sidharth ke jaane ke baad maine apni marham patti ki aur garam paani se naha kar sho gayi. bahut der tak neend nahi aayi par jab aayi to subah 11 baje aankh khuli. Maine uthte hi office phone kiya ki mai aaj nahi aaungi.

 

[Mr.X]

Date 01-02-09
Aaj Sunday hai aur mai ghar par hun. shaam ka vakt hai aur 6 bajne waale hai. par ek ajeeb samashya aan khadi huyi hai.
Abhi abhi thodi der pehle door bell baji thi. maine darvaaje par aakar dekha to paya ki kisi ne darvaaje ke neeche se ek kaagaz ka tukda sarka rakha tha.
Maine kaagaz utha kar dekha to ush par leekha tha
“ritu mai tumhe sab kuch bataana chaahta hun, gate way of India ke saamne aa jao mai tumhaara intezaar kar raha hun. please ek baar meri baat shun lo phir kabhi mujh se baat mat karna. mai tumhaare liye hi mumbai aaya hun. mai tumhaara intezaar kar raha hun. Bas ek baar mil lo, Please”………..billu
maine kaagaz phaad kar fenk diya hai. billu ki koyi bhi baat shun-ne ka mera koyi iraada nahi hai. vaise bhi manish sachaayi ke kaafi karib hai.
Kal maine dipti ko phone kiya tha, ushne mujhe kaha tha, “ritu, ho sakta hai ki billu jeenda ho kyonki ushki laash nahi mili hai. manish ke anushaar ashok ke saath jo maare gaye hai unme se ek raju hai aur ek ashok ka ladka dinesh hai”
Maine kaha, “billu yaha mumbai mein hai dipti”
“kk..kya tumhe kaise pata” — dipti ne hairaani mein pucha.
Maine dipti ko 21 january ki puri ghatna shuna di.
“Arey tumne to kamaal kar diya….. par ye baat tum mujhe aaj bata rahi ho, tumhe pata hai na manish ishi kaam par laga hai” —- dipti ne kaha.
“Dipti ab mera kuch jaan-ne ka man nahi hai, saaf lag raha hai ki billu ki sanjay aur vivek se koyi dushmani hai aur sanjay se badla lene ke liye ushne mujhe barbaad kiya hai. yaad hai na vo khun se leekhi line “doctor ki to yahi saja hai par vakil ko har haal mein marna hoga” —- maine kaha
“Vo to mai bhi samajh rahi hun, par kya tum nahi jaan-na chahogi ki billu kyo sanjay aur vivek ke peeche pada hai” —- dipti ne pucha
“sanjay se mera divorce ho chuka hai dipti aur vivek se mera koyi lena dena nahi hai. baaki sanjay khud sab kuch sambhaal lenge, billu unke peeche pada hai to pada rahne do. Mai ish chakkar mein nahi padna chaahti” —- maine kaha.
“Vo to theek hai ritu, par manish kah raha tha ki bahut jald sachaayi hamaare saamne hogi” —- dipti ne kaha.
Ishliye Mera billu se milne ka koyi iraada nahi hai. sachaayi vaise bhi jaldi hi saamne aa jaayegi.
……………………..
Date : 2-02-09
Aaj subah ki shuruvaat bahut buri tarah huyi. Subah koyi 8 baje maine apni khidki se baahar jhaank kar dekha to paya ki mere flat ke bilkul saamne sadak par billu khada tha.
Mujhe khidki mein dekhte hi vo haath jod kar khada ho gaya, jaise ki kah raha ho ki please mujh se mil lo.
Maine jhat se khidki band kar di aur office ke liye taiyaar hone lagi.
Shaam ko jab ghar aayi to phir se mujhe apne ghar ke ander darvaaje ke paas ek kaagaz mila
Ush par leekha tha
“mai bahut der tak kal tumhaara intezar karta raha, tumhe sab kuch bata kar vaapas delhi jaana chaahta hun, mere paas yaha jyada vakt nahi hai. jaise taise yaha kisi friend ke paas rah raha hun. vo bhi ab pareshaan hone laga hai. meri financial position aisi nahi hai ki ish sahar mein jyada din tahar paaun. Tumhe sab kuch bata deta to dil ko tassalli milti. Tumhe bataaye bina mar gaya to meri aatma bhatakti rahegi. Meri jeendagi ka koyi bharosa nahi hai. kisi bhi vakt mai mar sakta hun, meri jaan ko har vakt khatra hai. please ek baar mil lo. Mai tumse aur kuch nahi chaahta”……………….billu
pata nahi kyon, ek man ho raha hai ki ek baar ushki baat shun lun, par phir ushki peechli harkate yaad aati hai. kya pata ye ushki koyi chaal ho, ush par vishvaas
karna mushkil hai.

 

[Mr.X]

Date 7-02-09
Peechle 5 dino se dekh rahi hun, billu roj subah mujhe office jaate vakt mere flat ke baahar mil jaata hai, aur jab mai vaapas aati hun to bhi mujhe vahi milta hai. ushke chehre par aisey bhaav rahte hai, jaise ki vo bahut innocent ho, lagta hi nahi hai ki ushi ne mujhe barbaad kiya hai. billu ka ye dushra hi roop dekh rahi hun. pata nahi kya raaj hai. mai ab dipti ke phone ka intezaar kar rahi hun. kal ushne bataaya tha ki bas ek dau din ki baat hai sachaayi saamne aa jaayegi. Roj mujhe office se aate hi ghar ke ander darvaaje ke niche billu ki leekhi chit milti hai. roj yahi leekha hota hai ki “aaj phir mai gate way of India par tumhaara intezaar karunga, ho sake to aa jao”
Par mai ush se milne kaise chali jaaun, jo ushne mere saath kiya hai ushe mai kabhi nahi bhula sakti. aur kya pata vo mujhe kaun si kahaani shunayega. Baatein banaane mein to vo expert hai hi. Kya pata koyi nayi chaal chal raha ho.
Ishliye mai billu ko ignore karke apne kaam par dhyaan de rahi hun.
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Raat ke 10 baj rahe hai. abhi thodi der pehle papa se phone par lambi baat ki.
“bete sidharth ka phone aaya tha, tumne bataaya nahi ki vo vahi mumbai mein hai, bahut acha ladka hai” —- papa ne kaha
“ji papa mujhe dhyaan hi nahi raha, sidharth hamaari company ka CA hai, aksar office mein ush se mulaakat ho jaati hai, par ushne aapko kyo phone kiya” —– maine hairaani mein pucha.
“Beta, vo tumse shaadi karna chaahta hai, mujh se kah raha tha ki aap maan jao to ritu bhi maan jaayegi. Mai to pehle bhi tum logo ke saath hi tha, bas ushke papa ki izaazart ke bina kuch nahi hone dena chaahta tha. Acha ladka hai, ushke saath tum jeendagi ki nayi shuruvaat kar sakti ho, baaki sab kuch tumhaare upar hai, mai tumhe kuch nahi kahunga, jaisa tumhe acha lage karo, mai tumhaare saath hun.” —- papa ne kaha
aaj tak maine papa ki baat nahi taali hai, ishliye maine unhe kuch nahi kaha ki mai kya chaahti hun. mai soch rahi hun ki ab sidharth se hi baat karungi.
Date : 8-02-09
Aaj man bahut udaas hai chintoo ka birthday hai aur mai ushke paas nahi hun, par kya karun ush se milne bhi nahi ja sakti. nayi nayi naukri join ki hai, aur phir abhi kaam bhi jyada hai. subah ka vakt hai soch rahi hun ki mandir chali jaaun. Shaayad man ko kuch sakun miley. Vaise bhi aaj Sunday hai aur mere paas kaafi vakt hai
———–
11:30 am (8-02-09)
mandir mein ghuste hi mujhe ek anokha sa sakun mila. Mandir mein bahut pyara bhajan chal raha tha.
♫♪♫….. hare krishna… hare krishne…..krishna krishna….hare.. hare.. hare rama…hare rama… rama rama.. hare…hare….♫♪♫
Kisi ne sach hi kaha hai ki jab aap bhagvaan ke paas haath jod kar jaate hai to bhagvaan aapko gale laga lete hai. kuch aisa hi ahsaash mujhe ho raha tha.
ye bhajan meri anter aatma mein utarta chala gaya. Bahut dino baad man ko kuch shaanti mili. par ye shaanti jyada der nahi rah paayi.
mai bhagvaan ke aage aankhe band karke khadi thi aur man hi man chintoo ke liye lambi umar ki kaamna kar rahi thi. apne liye mai kya maangti bas yahi duva kar rahi thi ki hey bhagvaan mujhe hamesha ache raste par rakhna. Mujhe itni shakti dena ki jab bhi mere saamne dau raste aayein to mai sahi raste ka chunaav kar sakun.
Sabhi kuch acha chal raha tha. aankhe band karke mein ander hi ander kho gayi thi aur hare krishna hare rama bhajan mere kaano mein gunj raha tha.
Achaanak mujhe ek awaaj shunaayi di
“bhagvaan mujhe aapse kuch nahi chaahiye, vaise bhi jo tha vo to aapne pehle hi cheen liya hai, agar mujhe kuch dene ko bacha ho to vo ish devi ko de do. mai jyada din nahi jeena chaahta, meri umar aap ish devi ko laga do. aur ye devi aapse jo bhi maangti hai de do bhagvaan mai ish devi ko bahut pyar karta hun…”
maine hairaani mein aankhe khol kar dekha aur chonk gayi..
billu mere paas aankhe band karke bhagvaan ke aage haath jode khada tha. maine man hi man mein socha ki ishki himmat kaise ho gayi yaha aane ki aur aise mere saath khade hone ki.
maine pujaari se parsaad liya aur jhat se mandir se baahar aa gayi.
“ritu ruk jao, please…. ek baar meri baat to shun lo, mai bas tumhe kuch bataana chaahta hun, aur to kuch nahi chaahta, please….” —- billu ne mere peeche aate huve kaha.
Mai ruk gayi aur peeche mud kar ushe kaha, “billu agar tum mein jara si bhi sharam baaki hai to yaha se chale jao. Aur mujhe tumse kuch nahi shun-na. Vaise bhi mujhe kaafi kuch pata chal gaya hai. mera peecha chhod do aur yaha se dafa ho jao.”
mandir mere flat ke nazdeek hi tha, ishliye teji se chal kar mai apne ghar aa gayi. mujhe bahut bura lag raha tha ki vo mere peeche mandir tak aa gaya. pata nahi billu aisa kyo kar raha hai ?
raat ke 11 bajne ko hai aur man bahut bechan ho raha hai. ye bechani sidharth ke kaaran hai. samajh nahi aata ki ushe kaise samjhaaun.
Jaise hi mai mandir se aayi thi sidharth ghar aa gaya tha.
“Ritu mai bina bataaye aa gaya, tum bura to nahi maanogi” —- sidharth ne hanste huve pucha.
“Nahi koyi baat nahi, baitho mai coffee banaati hun” — maine kaha.
Mai khud ush se milna chaahti thi. ab jab ushne papa se baat kar li thi to ushe sab kuch bataana jaroori ho gaya tha.
“Ritu, maine kal tumhaare dady se baat ki thi, shaayad unhone tumhe bataaya hoga. Vo to taiyaar hai, ab bas tumhare haan kahne ki der hai, jo sapna hum pehle pura nahi kar paaye the vo ab kar sakte hai. tum bataao, kya mujh se shaadi karogi” ? — sidharth ne coffee peete huve pucha.
“hmm…. Sidharth I respect you a lot. You are real gentleman. Any women would love to marry you. But..” —- maine kaha
“but kya, vo women tum kyo nahi ho sakti ? aakhir tum kyo mujh se shaadi nahi karna chaahti ? bahaana bana rahi ho hai na, tumhe shaayad ab mai acha nahi lagta” ? — sidharth ne emotional tone mein kaha.
“Aisi baat nahi hai sidharth, meri jeendagi uljhi huyi hai, mai tumhe kaise samjhaun” —- maine kaha.
“Mujhe moka to do mai tumhaari har uljhan dur kar dunga, par aisey bahaana mat banaao. Mai tumhe bahut pyar karta hun aur tum mujhe sata rahi ho” —- sidharth ne kaha.
“Mai tumhe sata nahi rahi hun sidharth, mai tumhe kaise bataaun, acha ruko mai tumhe kuch deti hun” — maine sidharth se kaha.
“Kya ritu” ? —- sidharth ne pucha.
Mai apne bedroom mein gayi aur apni diary ley aayi. Mai sidharth ko apne muh se sab kuch nahi bata sakti thi. ishliye sidharth ko apni diary dene ka faisala kiya.
“Ye lo sidharth tum ishe padh lo, tum khud samajh jaaoge ki aaj mai kish haalaat mein hun” —- maine sidharth ko apni diary dete huve kaha.
“Kya hai ish diary mein ritu, tum khud kyo nahi bata deti” ? —- sidharth ne pucha.
“Tum khud padh lo sidharth, tab tak mai lunch banaati hun” —– maine kaha
“wow…. kya tum mujhe apne haath ka khaana khilaaogi, aaj to maja aa jayega, bahut dino se maine ghar ka khana nahi khaaya, tumhe to pata hi hai, mai bhi tumhaari tarah yaha mumbai mein akela rah raha hun, aksar baahar hi khaana padta hai” —– sidharth ne mushkurate huve kaha.
“Haan sidharth hum daono saath lunch karenge. Aur haan ish diary mein leekhi kahaani ho sakta hai tumhe bhaddi lage. Dar-asal maine kuch nahi chupaaya. Jo kuch bhi mere saath peechle dino huva hai sab kuch sach sach leekh diya hai ” — maine kaha.
“Theek hai mai padhta hun tum jaldi se lunch banaao mai khaana khane ke liye mara ja raha hun” sidharth ne kaha.
Mai kitchen mein khaana banaane lagi aur sidharth meri diary padhne mein busy ho gaya.
Jaise hi mai lunch bana kar kitchen se baahar aayi to maine dekha ki vo diary ko ek taraf rakh kar chupchaap baitha hai.
Maine pucha “lunch taiyaar hai sidharth kya lunch karein”
“Ritu ye sab kaise ho gaya, mujhe bilkul vishwaas nahi ho raha. mai samajh nahi pa raha hun ki kaise react karun” —- sidharth ne meri aur dekh kar kaha.
“Lunch karte hai sidharth, mai ish baare mein koyi baat nahi kar paaungi. haan itna jaroor kahungi ki ish diary ki ek ek baat sach hai. sach ke alawa maine ish mein kuch nahi leekha.” — maine kaha.
“Ritu acha kiya tumne mujhe ye diary de di. Mere dil mein tumhaare liye samman aur badh gaya hai. mujhe acha laga ki tumne sanjay ko sab kuch sach sach bata diya tha. ” —- sidharth ne kaha.
“par sach bataane mein maine der kar di thi sidharth. ” —- maine sidharth se kaha.
“ritu, agar tum sochti ho ki ish diary mein leekhi baate hamaari shaadi mein rukaavat hai to tum galat ho. Haan mujhe bura laga, balki bahut bura laga, par jaise jaise mai padhta gaya mujhe ye bhi laga ki tum ek achi inshaan ho jishmein ki ache bure ki samajh baaki hai. tumhe apni galti ka ahsaash hai, aur kya chaahiye. mai tumse shaadi karne ke liye taiyaar hun. mujhe ish diary se koyi matlab nahi hai. tum ishmein aag laga do aur sab kuch bhul kar meri jeendagi mein aa jao. Hum dauno nayi shuruvaat karte hai” sidharth ne kaha.
Aisa lag raha tha jaise ki sidharth mere pyar mein andha ho gaya hai
“Oh no sidharth ye diary tumhe dene ka ye matlab nahi tha. tum samajhte kyo nahi ho. Mai abhi bahut uljhan mein hun” —– maine kaha.

 

[Mr.X]

“Ritu mai tumhe abhi shaadi karne ko nahi kah raha hun. ab jab maine ye diary padh li hai to mai samajh sakta hun. tum aaraam se apne kaam par dhyaan dau. Aur rahi ush billu ki baat mujhe dikhaao ki vo kaun hai, ushki akal mai theekane lagaata hun” —— sidharth ne kaha.
Maine apne flat ki sadak ki taraf wali khidki se baahar jhaank kar dekha. Par billu vaha nahi deekha.
“Abhi vo yaha nahi hai. par jab bhi mai subah office jaati hun aur jab shaam ko vaapas aati hun to vo aajkal mere flat ke saamne sadak par milta hai” —- maine kaha
“tum chinta mat karo mai kal subah 9 baje aa jaaunga. Tum company ki car mein mat jaana, hum saath chalenge, theek hai. mai dekhna chaahta hun ki ye billu aakhir kya bala hai” — sidharth ne kaha.
Phir hum daono ne lunch kiya.
Lunch karne ke baad sidharth ne kaha, “tum soch lo ritu, tumhaare paas bahut vakt hai, par mai shaadi tum se hi karunga, I love you from the bottom of my heart. bade se bada toofaan bhi mere pyar ko nahi hila sakta. Ye tumhaari diary bhi nahi. I will wait for you. Ab mai chalta hun, kisi client ke paas jaana hai. kal subah miltey hai theek hai”
Ushki baat shun kar meri aankho mein aanshu aane ko ho gaye. Par maine khud ko thaam liya. pata nahi sidharth mujhe itna pyar kyo karta hai. mujhe yakin nahi tha ki vo ye diary padh kar bhi aisi baat kahega. Yahi kaaran hai ki mai bechan hun. ab sidharth ko mai kaise mana karungi, samajh nahi pa rahi hun.
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Date : 9-02-09 11:30 pm
Aaj bahut bade raaj se parda khul gaya
Aaj subah subah alarm ki bajaaye mujhe dipti ke phone ne uthaaya.
Subah 7 baje mera phone baj utha.
“dipti hi…., kya baat hai, itni subah kyo phone kiya” —- maine hairaani mein pucha
“ritu bahut badi baat pata chali hai, abhi abhi manish ka phone aaya tha. saari guthi sulajhati nazar aa rahi hai” —- dipti ne kaha.
Mai jhat se apne bed par baith gayi aur kaha, “acha, jaldi bataao kya pata chala hai”
“ye saari kahaani ek hi naam par ja kar ruk gayi hai, vo hai kavita” —- dipti ne kaha
“ kavita … kaun kavita, ab ye kavita kaha se aa gayi” — maine pucha
“sanjay ke clinic mein nurse thi vo, tum to ushe jaanti hogi” —- dipti ne pucha
“oh haan…. yaad aaya… tum ush kavita ki baat kar rahi ho. Bahut achi aur sarif ladki thi. ek baar chintoo ke birthday par ghar bhi aayi thi. meri ush se achi bol chaal thi. par vo to koyi 2 saal pahle clinic chhod kar chali gayi thi”
“she is missing ritu, 2 saal se vo gaayab hai, ushke saath kya huva, vo ab kaha hai, jeenda hai bhi ya nahi …kisi ko nahi pata” ??? —- dipti ne kaha.
“Ohh mujhe ish baare mein nahi pata tha, ek baar jab mein clinic gayi thi to sanjay se pucha tha ki kavita kaha hai, unhone to yahi kaha tha ki vo vaha se kaam chhod kar chali gayi” — maine kaha
“sanjay to yahi kahega, kyonki ho sakta hai ki kavita ke gaayab hone mein ushka haath ho, manish ko ish baare mein shak hai. haan par vivek ka ishmein pakka haath hai” —- dipti ne kaha
“par mere saath jo kuch huva, ush se kavita ka kya lena dena dipti” — maine hairaani mein pucha.
“billu kavita ka chota bhai hai ritu. aur ye pata chala hai ki vo 2 saal se apni sister ko dhund raha hai. Bahut pyar karta hai vo kavita ko. Ushke ma baap ke marne ke baad kavita ne hi ushe pala hai. police kuch nahi kar rahi. ya phir ye samajh lo ki kisi ke dabaav ke kaaran police kuch karna nahi chaahti. Manish billu ke delhi wale ghar gaya tha. vaha pata chala hai ki billu to bahut sarif aur nek ladka hai”
“bas-bas mujhe pata hai vo kitna nek hai, haan par kavita ke liye mujhe dukh hai, bahut mehanti thi vo. Mai jab bhi clinic jaati thi ushe kaam karte huve hi paati thi. sanjay bhi ushki kaafi taarif karte the, kahte the ki kavita ne akele hi kaafi kaam sambhaal rakha hai” —- maine dipti se kaha.
“Kavita ke hi kaaran manish par ush din jaan leva hamla huva tha. mujhe yakin hai ki sanjay aur vivek nahi chaahte ki kisi ko pata chale ki kavita ke gaayab hone mein unka haath hai. vo hamla un dauno ne hi karvaaya hoga” —– dipti ne kaha
“sanjay aisa nahi karenge, haan vivek kuch bhi kar sakta hai. par vo to mar gaya hoga. Maine khud ushe goli maari thi.” —- maine kaha.
“Ish baare mein mujhe nahi pata. Par itna jaroor saaf ho gaya hai ki billu kavita ke kaaran hi tumhaare peeche pada tha. shaayad ushe shak hoga ki kavita ke gaayab hone mein sanjay ka haath hai” —- dipti ne kaha.
“Ish se ushka gunaah kam nahi ho jaata” — maine kaha.
“Vo to theek hai ritu, mai to bas billu ka motive bata rahi thi. par yaar manish ab kavita ke case par lag gaya hai. he is taking it personally now, vo samajh hi nahi raha hai ki ish mein ushki jaan ko khatra hai, mujhe dar lag raha hai” —– dipti ne kaha
“dipti lagta hai vo ziddi hai. tum bas ushe ye samjaao ki apna khyaal rakhe. Mujhe nahi lagta ki ushe samjhaane ka koyi faayda hoga. Aur tum daro mat ab to vo bilkul theek hai, hai na”
“kaha theek hai, ladkhada kar chalta hai abhi bhi, par chalo, ab mai chalti hun, mujhe office ke liye bhi taiyaar hona hai” —- dipti ne kaha
“ohh… mai bhi late ho rahi hun, bye phir fursat mein baat karenge” — maine kaha
maine jaldi se fresh ho kar breakfast kiya aur office ke liye taiyaar ho gayi. par har pal mere man mein dipti ki kahi baatein ghum rahi thi.
maine khidki se baahar jhaank kar dekha, vaha koyi nahi tha. maine socha ki shaayad billu thodi der mein aane wala hoga.
Theek 9 baje sidharth ne door bell bajaayi.
Jaise hi maine darvaaja khola ushne pucha, “ baahar sadak par to koyi nahi hai, ye diary tumhari koyi fiction story to nahi hai”
Nahi sidharth billu roj subah sadak par khada milta hai. aaj shaayad vo nahi aaya. Phir maine sidharth ko subah waali baat bata di. Maine ushe vo sab kuch bata diya jo ki dipti ne mujhe bataaya tha.
“hmm…..very sad… but still, billu is a criminal” —- sidharth ne kaha.
“Haan mein bhi yahi sochti hun” —- maine kaha
jaise hi mai apne ghar se sidharth ke saath nikli meri aankhe charo taraf billu ko hi dhund rahi thi. mai ush se milna to nahi chaahti thi, haan par ye jaroor soch rahi thi ki aakhir vo aaj yaha kyon nahi aaya.
“Billu ko hi dhund rahi ho, hai na” ? —- sidharth ne emotional tone mein pucha
Maine ushki aur dekha aur boli, “mai hairaan hun ki aaj vo kyo nahi aaya”
“Acha hi to hai, ush se ab tumhe kya matlab, bhaad mein jaaye vo” —- sidharth ne thoda gusse mein kaha
mein samajh gayi ki sidharth ko hurt huva hai. mai chupchaap ushki car mein baith gayi aur yaha vaha dekhna band kar diya.
kitni ajeeb baat hai, kayi baar hum aisi harkate kar jaate hai ki hamein bhi nahi pata chalta ki hum kyo kar rahe hai. dar-asal subah dipti se baat karne ke baad mai billu se ek baar milna chaahti thi. yahi kaaran tha ki mai subah ushe sadak par na paa kar hairaan ho rahi thi. sidharth ko ye baat buri lagni hi thi. vo mujhe pyar jo karta hai.
saara din office mein bada hi mushkil beeta. Man kar raha tha ki abhi ghar chali jaaun, billu jaroor mere flat ke aas paas hi hoga. Ek ek pal mera badi mushkil se beet raha tha. kavita ka chehra bhi baar baar mere man mein ghum raha tha. mai ye bhi soch rahi thi ki agar billu itna nek hai to mere saath itni ghinoni harkat kyo ki ushne. Jo bhi ho, mai ek baar billu se milna chaahti thi.
maine lunch time mein apne office ke baahar bhi dekha, par vo vaha bhi nazar nahi aaya. Maine socha ki ho sakta hai vo delhi chala gaya ho. Phir khyaal aaya ki shaam ko ghar jaate vakt vo jaroor sadak par mil jaayega.
Ishi udhedbun mein mera har pal beet raha tha.
5:30 baje mein jhat se sabhi kaam nipta kar ghar ke liye nikal padi. Bahut bechan thi mai ghar pahunchane ke liye.
mera ghar aa gaya par billu kahi nazar nahi aa raha tha. maine car se utar kar charo aur nazar daudaayi par dur dur tak mujhe billu ki parchaayi tak nahi deekhi. Maine man hi man socha kaha chala gaya aaj vo ?
driver ne pucha, “madam kishi ko dhund rahe ho kya:”
“nahi tum jao aur kal time par aa jaana” —- maine driver se kaha.
Mai teji se apne flat ki taraf chal padi. Chalte chalte soch rahi thi ki jaroor billu ne aaj bhi koyi chit chhodi hogi
Par aaj koyi chit nahi thi
“Billu kaha gaya, kya vo vaapas delhi chala gaya, vaise vo kah to raha tha ki meri financial position theek nahi hai, mai yaha jyada der nahi tahar sakta” ——- Yahi sab mere deemag mein ghum raha tha.
Phir mujhe khyaal aaya ki gate way of India par jaakar dekhti hun, vo jaroor vahi hoga.
Sidharth ne mujhe bataaya tha ki gate way of India tumhaare ghar se walking distance par hai
Maine jhat se ghar ko lock kiya aur paidal hi logo se puchte puchte gate way of India ki taraf chal padi.
Aur jaisa ki mujhe lag raha tha, billu mujhe vahi mila. vo gate way of India ke paas jo samunder ke charo aur deevar bani hai ush se sat kar khada tha.
Ushka chehra samunder ki aur tha aur aisa lag raha tha jaise ki vo gahre vichaaro mein khoya hai.
Mai ushke karib aa gayi. par vo jaise ek murti ki tarah khada tha aur ek tak samunder ko dekhe ja raha tha. aisa lag raha tha jaise ki ushe hosh hi nahi hai ki ushke aas paas kya ho raha hai.
Mai bilkul ushke peeche khadi thi. samajh nahi pa rahi thi ki ushe kaise bulaaun.
“Billu, kavita ke baarein mein shun kar dukh huva” —- maine dheere se kaha.
Par billu ke sharir mein koyi harkat nahi huyi. Vo vaise hi murti ki tarah vaha khada raha
Maine ushke kandhe par haath rakha aur kaha, “billu mujhe kavita ke liye dukh hai”
Vo dheere se meri aur ghuma aur maine ushki aankho mein aanshu dekhe. Yakin hi nahi ho raha tha ki billu ro bhi sakta hai. ushki aankho mein aanshu dekh kar meri aankhe bhi nam ho gayi.
Vo mere gale lag gaya aur phoot phoot kar rone laga aur bola, “ pata nahi kaha gaayab kar diya meri didi ko kamino ne ritu”
Mai bhi bhaavuk ho gayi. maine ushe rokne ki koshis nahi ki. billu aaj ek bacha lag raha tha. mai soch bhi nahi sakti thi ki vo ish tarah ro sakta hai.
Mai ushe chaah kar bhi apne sheene se nahi hata paayi. Charo aur log hamein hi dekh rahe the. Tabhi maine dur se sidharth ko aate dekha. Mai sidharth ko dekh kar hadbada gayi. soch rahi thi ki pata nahi vo kya sochega mujhe billu ke saath aisi haalat mein dekh kar.